My Clumsy-Genius Boy

Ch.18 : Guilty

Mew's POV

Drttt! Drtttt!

I open my eyes. Ahh... I must be fell asleep earlier. I check on him. Geez... Even after 17 years, he always sleeps like this. Whenever I sleep with him, I always become his bolster. He puts one of his leg on me while his hand rests on my stomach. However, I frown when I find the wound on his arm. I trace it with my finger. It must be hurt...

Drtttttt! Drttttttttt!

My phone is ringing. I take my phone. It's Boat who video-calling me.

"What is it, Boat? Why do you call me in early morning?", I'm shocked when I see my whole team is there.

"P'Mew, are you still sleeping? Do you forget about our meeting with Mr. Commissioner?"

"Shit! I almost forget about it!"

And, I also forget about this boy. "Hmph...", he whines because of the noises from the call.

"Shhh... Shhh...", I tap his arm gently.

"Guys, thank you for reminding me, but I can't talk now! See you at office!", I end the call immediately.

The boy still frowns. I pull him closer and tap his thigh. In the past, he wouldn't wake up if I did this. He finally falls asleep again. I should get ready now. I get out from the bed. After I take my shirt, I leave the room. When I open the door, I find a memo from Irene and uncle. They have left first. Fiuh... Fortunately, Irene has made breakfast for us. I only need to warm it. I go to kitchen and check it.

I go back to bedroom again. Once I am inside, I find him already opened his eyes. He is still lying down facing the window. I approach him. 

"Gulf...", he suddenly sits up and hides under blanket.

Gulf's POV

I finally open my eyes again to start my boring days again. I stare at the blue sky. I'm tired with this. When can I live freely? When will I stop living in fear like this?

"Gulf...", I sit up and hide under blanket. 

No! Not again! He isn't real! It's just my hallucination! Forget him, you stupid!

"Gulf... Are you okay?", I hear his voice again.

No! It's not him! He doesn't want to meet you again! And, remember! You only give him trouble and put him in dangerous. 

My hand trembles. I cover my ears. I don't want my hallucination effect me. No! This is not real! It's just my hallucination!

Mew's POV

I'm hurt so much to see my yai nong in this condition. I pull the blanket that cover him. It's shocked me when I see how he covers his ears and cries. I feel guilty and blame myself for my action. Everything will be better if I was willing to hear their explanation.

"Gulf... It's me, Gulf! This is P'Mew!", I tap his shoulders.

Gulf closes his eyes tightly. "No! You aren't real! You aren't real!", he struggles, trying to push me away. 

"No, Gulf! I'm real! Phi is real!", I pull him into my embrace.

"No! You lie! You're not P'Mew! P'Mew is angry with me. He doesn't want to meet me anymore!", he cries out loud.

Fuck! What have you done to him, Mew? He is struggling inside my embrace. But, I hug him tighter. I won't let him go this time. I won't let him suffer alone anymore.