an ANGEL fell from the sky

Chapter XII: Hunter

The cold water drags me back to reality.

I open my eyes.

I wait a couple more seconds and shut off the water. I reach for my towel and almost slip on a pool of water. Luckily I manage to keep my balance and grab the towel. I towel myself a little bit and then roll it around my waist. Then as I get out of the shower, I accidentally bump into someone.

''Oh, hey dude!'' Says Sean.

I don't answer back. I put toothpaste on my toothbrush and brush my teeth without even looking into the mirror.

I know, what a jerk I am for not replying.

I usually ignore him. Like I ignore mostly everyone. And I can be a total dick. I always push everyone away. I'm not into big groups. But it's just not for me. I'm a lonely wolf. And I'm okay with that.

''Hey um...a guy from my team has a party this Friday. So, if you wanna come just come.'' He says.

I still don't reply and just keep brushing my teeth.

''Man! You look like shit.'' He calls up again.

That's it. I lose it. I spit into the sink.

''Do you ever shut up?'' I yell at him.

He looks at me terrified and doesn't say a word.

I get that reaction a lot. Sometimes people are afraid of me by the way and what I yell at people. I don't know. Since my parents died I've been like this. I yell at everyone. Even those who didn't even do anything.

This is me. I'm messed up.

I rinse my mouth out and my toothbrush and storm out of the bathroom.

''Shit!'' I yell loud when I enter my room.

Why does he have to talk so damn much?

I kick my shoes out of the way and sit down on the bed. I look at my arm sling and angrily throw it to the ground.

''Fuck!'' I rage.

I put on a boxer and a shirt and get into bed.

My body hurts like hell. How am I going to sleep like this?

Doc got me some painkillers. But no way I'm going to use it.

I roll on my right and stare at my phone. It's only 9 p.m. I could've been for like an hour in the shower. I'm definitely going crazy. Katie's right.

Oh my god, Katie!

I roll on my back and stare at the ceiling.

Katie.

I almost kissed her. We almost kissed.

Fucking Jordan!

I've been thinking though. I don't know. I mean, what if Jordan doesn't interrupt us? What if we were totally alone? Just the two of us. What if I kissed her? Would've she kissed me back? If she would, then it would've been because she really wanted to, or because she was just super vulnerable at the time?

I put my pillow on my face and shout in it. ''Fuuuuck!''

My phone starts ringing.

I take the pillow off of my face and throw it away. Then I reach for my phone and throw it to the ground.

I don't know how the hell it hasn't broken yet. I always throw it hither and thither.

I don't know what's going on. I don't have a clue what I'm doing or what the heck I should do. Why can't life just be simple? Why does this have to be so freaking hard?

My phone rings again.

''Shut the fuck up!''

I don't want to deal with anything right now. So, I ignore it.

***

I don't know for how long I've been lying here. But I just can't sleep. I never sleep right to be honest. My parents' death is going to haunt me for the rest of my life. This just keeps bothering me. There're always the same questions in my head.

Why?

Why them?

Why did it have to be them?

Why not me?

I keep asking these questions to myself all the time, but I never get an answer.

I can't hold on. I can't.

I jump out of bed and look for the pendrive. But of course I can't find it. My room has been very messy lately.

Where are you?

Then I remember. My pants.

I take it up form the ground and shake it. The pendrive falls out.

Got it.

I sit down to my desk and open up my laptop. I look at my background. There are my parents and I when we were in Disneyland. I was 5 back then, and this was one of the best days of my life. We had so much fun. I remember how many rollercoasters I tried out. It was awesome. It was a good day.

I keep staring at the screen and starting to get emotional.

No! I can't cry! I can't! I need to remind myself that I need to be strong. I can't break. I need to get myself together.

With a quick move I connect the pendrive to my laptop.

It says, 'encrypted'.

Of course it is. My mom did her job pretty well to protect whatever this thing hides.

Remember I've been different lately? Not surprisingly. This thing's been driving me crazy. I've been trying to get in, but I cannot figure out what the password is. I've tried everything. Still I haven't find a way in. My mind's been running round and round this thing.

I know I could just tell Seamus, the genius guy here at Nixon's. But he's like a gossip girl. And if anything gets out that I find on this pendrive, this kid would be dead. I know myself. I couldn't control myself. No one could stop me from ripping his head off. And to be honest, I don't wanna go to jail. So, I just have to deal with this all by myself I guess.

I type the first thing that comes to my head, but nothing. I try once more. Nothing. I don't know how many options I tried so far, but my fingers start to hurt.

I look at the time. It's 2 a.m.

Shit!

I disconnect the pendrive and turn down my laptop.

Gosh! My head still hurts like a bitch.

I glance at my parents' photo one more time and go to bed.