an ANGEL fell from the sky

Chapter XX: Katie

I'm trying to enjoy this meal, but I just can't get him out of my mind. I mean. What was that yesterday evening? And today at breakfast? And now? He's never nervous or embarrassed about the way he behaves around me. We were never like this when we are with each other.

What the hell is going on with us? Does he feel the same as I do? Does he ever feel like he doesn't know what to say and loses his mind when he's around me? Does he ever get buttleflies when he's with me? Does he? Cause I do. And all I can think about is him, holding me and pressing his beautiful lips on mine.

I put down my fork and run my hands through my hair.

What should I do? Should I tell him? But how? What should I say? How will he react? What will he say? Will he say anything? Will he admit that he feels the same? Will he give me a kiss? Or he'll just run off and lock himself in his room?

Oh my god! I can't!

I bend over the table. Although a little harder than I want to and smack my forehead into the table.

''Gosh!'' I say out loud and rub my head.

I look around. The kids at the next table are looking at me.

''What the hell are you looking at?'' I bark at them, and they all look back to their plate.

''What the hell was that about?'' Hunter asks sitting down in front of me.

My heart is starting to beat faster again.

Not now. Stop it heart!

I know it might sounds weird that I'm talking to my heart like an idiot. But just don't beat so damn fast!

''Are you okay?'' Asks Hunter.

''What? Yeah.'' I blink. ''Uh... yeah. I was just...thinking.'' I mumble.

''About what?'' He asks curious and puts a bite in his mouth.

''Your shirt.'' I point at his yellow shirt. ''It's uh...nice.''

Jeez! What's up with you Katie? Don't be so nervous for God's sake!

Wait! Why is he wearing yellow? I've never seen him wear yellow. And any kinds of bright colored piece of clothing.

''This?'' He grabs it by the neck. ''I didn't have anything else to wear.'' He says and takes another bite. I do the same.

We're sitting here together without saying anything to each other. I think we both feel awkward. Although we shouldn't.

''Where's Liz?'' He asks after about a minute.

I swallow the bite and say, ''She's with Sean. They went to Manhattan. They won't be back 'til late night.''

''Oh. I guess it's gonna be just the two of us then.'' He says and those butterflies keep coming back even more.

''Yeah.'' I say and clear my throat.

''So, um...this party. Whose is it gonna be?'' He asks.

''Um...a guy named Gabe or something. I don't really know the football team to be honest.'' I explain. Then I move my plate away so I can put my arms folded on the table.

I look at Hunter, and the look on his face changes.

''Ugh, Gabe. He's a fuck boy, just so you know. And I'm pretty sure he's doing drugs sometimes.'' His tone turns different. ''I'm not saying you not to go. Not if I could stop you anyway. But still. Be careful with that guy!'' He leans closer above the table. ''I'm gonna kill him with my bare hands if he even lays his eyes on you.'' He says serious and narrows his eyes.

He actually looks creepy now from this close. Especially because of that big black eye on the left. He looks like someone who's been on a fight. It kinda looks pretty badass though.

''O-kay.'' I look down at my hands.

I want him to come to the party with me. I know it's selfish to ask him, cause I know that Saturday is gonna be tough for him. It's gonna be tough for me too. But he's been much more intense and instable the past few weeks already. But it would be so great. I should ask him once more. I mean, it's worth a try. Maybe he'll say yes. Maybe he will change his mind. Maybe.

''Um...'' I start and look back at him. ''I know I already asked. But...you sure you don't wanna come?'' I ask and hope to hear what I want to hear.

''Katie.'' The way he says my name already tells me that it's gonna be a no.

''Sorry! I shouldn't have asked this again. It was so not fair. Sorry!'' I keep apologizing.

''Katie.'' He calls me and I look at him. ''It's alright. I'm not mad. It's just...I'm not really in the mood to go to a party right now.'' He explains and I see the look in his eyes change again. He gives me the broken look again.

What am I going to do with this boy?

''I know.'' That's all I say and sigh.

''But here's the thing. If I'll feel fine by next week, we could go to Central Park. How about that?'' He asks and puts on a slight smile. It's crazy how fast he can change.

Honestly, I don't know when the last time was when we went out somewhere together. I miss those days. But we don't usually get to hang out. Liz is mostly around and Hunter is...well...Hunter is Hunter. He's always somewhere else. But, I could really use some time outside my own room and my school. Sometimes I stop by at the editorial office to drop down my weekly article to my boss. But that's it. Other than these, I don't really go anywhere.

So, it would be super cool to get away sometimes. And I know that it'll probably be super awkward. But I'm sure we'll figure out.

''Sure! That'd be nice!'' I say with a smile.

''Cool!'' His smile grows. ''But now if you'll excuse me, I have some work to do.'' He explains and begins to stand up.

''What?'' I ask.

''Um...uh...homework.'' He says. He seems nervous.

I nod.

''See you in the morning?'' I ask.

''Uh, yeah. Sure! Bye!'' And with that, he walks off.