Angel waiting to go home .

Road Becomes Wider By Day

I arrive home exhausted and not in the mood for anyone . I get in my room put my bag down and change out of my uniform , " Promise ! Promise " my little sister calls for me and I am not in the mood for her right now ,she enters my room while I am still changing , " Hey " she greets smiling in excitement .
" What do you want Jasmine ? "  I ask with an annoyed expression , She makes a funny face thinking maybe I'm joking . " I just ... " she's smiling so brightfully .
" No ! Get out , you're annoying ! " I interrupt her and her excited face quickly turns into sadness ,she walks out and I just sit there in regret which quickly brings about tears in my eyes and I just cry it all out , I just took away her happiness because of my personal issues ,it makes me cry even more because she was happy to see me .
I eventually fall asleep to my falling tears , my pillow is wet from regret . I have the most peaceful sleep , I haven't had much in a very long time ...
I wake up and it's past 6 , and my heart is heavy with sorrow, what I need now is Lucky , I need him on me ,inside me ,all over me . I reach for my phone and log into my Whatsapp ,
" Hey " I send him a text
" Promise " he replies instantly .
" I miss you , let me come over " I say
" Why ? You ignored me all weekend , for what ? Why do you always wait for me ? For once take initiative and talk to me , not only when you want to fuck " he says and I don't have time to entertain his tantrums ,he literally could've texted., if he was serious ,so much drama over nothing , Lucky needs to grow up .
" Is that a yes or no " I ask . I hate him for dating Thandile , I am still hurt but I don't know how to overcome this pain I feel ,the anger and hatred towards him fastens the beating of my heart . I want sex and I want it now , I don't care how he feels!
" Promise ,what is wrong with you ? But fine ,pull through ,I see you refuse to listen to me when I speak " He texts back
" Pick me up by 10 ,bye " I text back then get off my bed to go make some food.
I sit with 4 strangers and enjoy my food , I have been alienated from them ,I do not see myself through them , amongst them I am a Zebra swinging amongst monkeys , that is how much I do not relate .
" Today we recieved our Matric Dance invites ... I didn't qualify " I express to them as the soapie their watching goes on an Ad break
" Why ? " My fathers asks , " Aren't all RCL's obliged to go " he asks
" I thought so too but our Principal decided to do things her own way " I say with clear anger written upon my face
" Maybe you can try to talk to her and find out why you didn't qualify so you can go ? " my mother suggests .
" No , I don't want to , you guys wouldn't be able to afford it anyway " I say rolling my eyes . They sit with shocked expressions at my comment.
" You don't need to go all ... " I stand up from my seat before my father finishes his statement , I get up and go back to my bedroom to finish eating my food . When I am done , I take my plate back to the Kitchen and meet my brother as I am putting my plate down
" Stop blaming everyone for your miserable life ,take responsibility " he says and walks out , I just laugh to make him look dumb .
" You're stupid and annoying " I laugh historically and he's embarrased at the moment , no one insults me and walks away with the joy of my broken heart , I will never give you that Satisfaction . One thing I am talented at is words , I know exactly which words to say to break you down , I analyse you not to know you but to be able to break you as much as I can if you cross the line , I don't tolerate bullshit .
I take a bath and prepare myself for Lucky , by 9o'clock I'm done preparing and so I push time by going through my notes and also completing some of my homework . By 10 o'clock sharp , I recieve a text from Lucky saying he is outside . I jump up in excitement more especially because I'm going to get some .
I try to sneak out but my brother is still awake , I place pillows under my bed in the form of myself , switch on the fan and switch off the light in my bedroom . I make sure I switch on the bathroom light so I can tell if anyone woke up or not , I sit in the Living room with him and create conversation to try and steal the keys without him noticing , I succeed .
" Goodnight , I'm going to sleep " I lie while standing up .
" Ayt " he simply remarks . I quickly sneak out the backdoor without him even suspecting a thing.
I jump the gate and quickly enter Lucky's car , " You took your time " he says smiling , and I melt .
" I'm sorry , Sneaking out wasn't as easy today " I say blushing , he smiles and stares at me .
" Thought you'd be a pro by now " he softly giggles and I laugh along with him while tugging him playfully .
" Kiss me " he says softly and my body heats up instantly , I literally freeze on my seat . He smiles and leans in to kiss me and I go with his flow .
He pulls his seat down forcing me to lean in even more , I find myself jumping from my seat and placing myself on top of him ,he pulls his seat down completely until we are both laying down with me on top of him . I take off my nightdress and go in for a kiss , he kisses me back with more intensity , he pulls me up slightly to take off my underwear and I help him pull it down completely . I'm naked at this point and I only want him inside me at this point .
Lucky is extremely talented when it comes to 4play , I am utterly mind blown by how quickly he makes me wet , his one hand was playing with my clit , the other on my breast and his mouth sucking my other breast . Oh my , if this is true Bliss , I would love to remain here , I lost all control of my body , I froze in pleasure , I tried moaning but not even a mourn can utter this intense pleasure . " Fuck ! I love you Lucky " it comes out as a grasp than an actual statement .
" I love you my baby " he removes his lips from my breast and the other hand from my clit and places kisses upon my neck , slightly sucking to leave love bites . He lifts me up from his crooch to take off his pants , he pulls them down and grabs a condom from the compartment and puts it on , I wasn't expecting this because he shoved his whole penis inside me , I screamed in pain , all that bliss was gone instantly . " Lucky stop ! " I pull myself out of him ,literally crying , I get off him and move to my seat .
" I thought you liked it rough , I'm sorry , please don't cry " He doesn't even sound genuine . So I wipe my tears , grab my underwear and wear my nightdress
" I'm sorry . " he says with no sympathy whatsoever while taking off the condom and pulling up his pants .
" I'm really sorry Promise , let's go to my house please "
" Why would you do that Lucky? What is wrong with you?" I ask, in tears.
" I'm sorry baby, I don't know what I was thinking. Forgive me." He says, wiping my tears with he's bare hand, I shake my head in disapproval and to also shake his hand away from my face.
" I love you and I didn't mean to, I'm sorry. " he smiles and places a kiss upon my cheek and I can't help but smile . He starts the car and we go to his house , we get there and go straight to his bedroom .
I lay on his bed faced up while he goes to the Kitchen , I lay there in perfect silence until that silence is stolen by small moans in the next room , I listen intensely and I can clearly hear a womans moans and small hoarse groans from a man . I'm quite disgusted really and at this point I want to go home but the urge for Lucky is still strong and it's overshadowing my want to go home .
Lucky enters the room with a small tray in his hands , my eyes are feed off by this beautiful gesture.
A white rose , because of my purity of no other man .
A glass of red wine , the blood I shed when I gave myself to him strengthens our bond .
A slab of chocolate , my sweet skin under his lips .
A Big Mac , because I love my food .
" Do you like it ?" he asks with delighted eyes , I nearly cry at this sight ,it's stunning ,something no man has ever done for me .
" I love it baby , thank you . " I say with a soft voice, my eyes are still gazing upon this tray .
" I just want to see you happy and that's all , your happiness is my life and joy , I love you Promise " he says and places the tray of goodies upon my lap and gives me a nice kiss .
" I love you Lucky " I say smiling and begin to eat , I leave the Chocolate so I can eat it when I get home . The glass of wine gets me wet and I am in need of some Lucky , I gulp my wine and finish all of it , I place the tray on the side of the bed and immediately get on top of Lucky and take off all my clothes . I waste no time to take off his , his pants in specific . By now , my mind is far away from the sex going on in the next room , I just need my fix .
Instantly regretting the choice I made. He finishes before I can even reach my orgasm , my vagina feels like it has been dug into , it burns and is numb , I have never felt pain like this , not even loosing my virginity hurt as much . Lucky has always been soft when it comes to sex , he always made sure the environment was romantic and soft , he made me comfortable . Today I saw flames , he started slow and nice , but his thrusts quickened within seconds literally , I cried out in pain but it didn't seem to bother him , I covered my mouth so I make no noise . He kept pounding in me like a wild dog and eventually came , he didn't even last 3 minutes , pathetic ! He pulled himself out and I just shut my legs in pain .
I cry out but he isn't sympathetic , he dozed off and paid no attention to my cries . " I hate you Lucky " I whisper looking at his naked body .

( Happy new year my dear friends, I love you all so much especially for your support!!! 
I just want to get you all a treat for all your support. Tune in after a week for the treat ❤️😊)