The Old Monk shaves the sky and I'm surprised I managed to get decent sleep , I do my everyday morning routine , I take a shower, brush my teeth, and eat my breakfast well Atleast part of it , the food here makes me nauseous . Nurse Faith enters my ward with her casual clothes and I assume that today is her day off , she smiles from the moment she lays her eyes on me and kisses my forehead before taking a seat aside my bed .
" Finish your breakfast . " she says as she notices the half full food on my plate .
" I just need some water and I'll be fine , the food here is not so great . " I say and she quickly stands up to get me some water , I drink it down but I just feel like it made my stomach worse .
" I hope that's better " she says , Oh no it is not , at all .
" Your mother might not come today , I believe she is too tired . " she adds on
" It's okay , I understand , I have been straining her alot since I got here . Actually when am I being discarded? "
" You were supposed to be discharged in a few days , But after the stunt you pulled that night , the Doctors still believe that you might be of harm yourself . " Nurse Faith says.
" Oh " I remark, obviously still ashamed about that night .
" It's alright, it will pass . " she says as she notices my expression and tries to smile to make me feel better . I just look down and try to withhold my tears at the memory of that night .
" Come on , don't cry baby ." She says and my eyes begin to water .
" Tell me about Lucky " she tries to change the Topic .
" How do you know about Lucky ? " knowing for a fact that she was eavesdropping on me and my mother .
" I heard you mention his name alot when you talk to your mother . " Shock!
" There is alot to tell about him . "
" Do tell anything about him . "
I'll just continue what I was telling my mother yesterday .
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Afterbreak the day went very quickly, I went home straight Afterschool to just rest after the extremely long and tiring day I had . I change out of my uniform , undo my hair and wear comfortable clothing . I fall asleep immediately after placing my head on my bed .
I wake up and the emptiness takes over , my heart is as if it has been dug a hole into , I try crying to ease the pain and it doesn't work because I don't know why I am feeling this way , I feel so hallow and with every beat of my heart , I can hear the echo of it's pain . To be honest all I want is this pain to end , I want to wake up Happy and end this foreign feeling that has taken refuge in my heart . I want to fill this void with whatever that is missing .
I take my phone to check the time and it's 18:00 , it's a little dark outside , I lay in my bed for a few minutes just replying to some texts on WhatsApp , I haven't been very social since Dile passed on . I still have the last message she sent me telling me how sorry she is for sending Lucky a text with my phone and she added a few laughing emojis to express her humour about the whole situation . I want to send her a message and tell her how much I need her , and how things are going between me and Lucky , I want to tell her that I miss her everyday but I can't... Tears roll down my face with this realisation and this time I choose not to wipe them away , I tell myself that may these be last tears I shed for her because I am tired of crying every single day wishing that she had choose to live. I exit our chats to check the message I had just received.
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Angel waiting to go home .
Tajemnica / ThrillerAfter my best friend is molested and later commits suicide in the hands of my crush , I seek closure in the worst way possible by tagging along many worthless souls through my rollercoaster through Hell which leads to many of my mental complications.