Break goes by quite slowly , with my World closing in on me ,I can feel the Suns pressure on my bare forehead bouncing at the rythem of my beating heart . I can hear Kabelo's comfort upon my shoulder but all of it is clouded by misery ,it is clouded by hatred ,it is clouded by Lucky . She hands me some water to try and calm me down but I just toss it to my side to try and remember how breathing works ,the rhythms are not matching and I can't continue straining my heart ,Lucky's betrayal is enough .
" Promise ,come on !" Kabelo pleads with me .
" Please don't cry ,please breathe Promise . " Her voice turns to worry
" Here ,take some water ,drink ." She pleads even more . The sound of her voice becomes cracky , and all I can hear is my loud heartbeat and my demons displaying water upon my eyes , so they can shine even brighter . They sparkle and twinkle , the Sun quickly becomes jealous and dries them .
" Fuck Promise ! Breathe " Kabelo begins to shake me , my eyes stare widely unto the field of blue amongst the green grass .
She forces the water bottle into my mouth and I gulp the water , my intensive stare upon the blue on green relaxes , my breathing decelerates and my tears burst out.
" I'm so sorry ,so sorry " She hugs me tightly
" Please don't cry , I am so sorry ,you do not deserve this please don't cry " Her tight hug around me makes more tears fall upon my face , my eyes sparkle and I see a beautiful Ocean upon my far sight . It's stunning honestly . " I am sorry okay ,it will all be okay " her voice cracks as she tries to comfort me .
One thing I hate is making someone cry because of my own misery ,especially when I see a bright light in that person ,I know I have the ability to distinguish it by just being in their presence.
"I'm fine please " I wipe all my tears off my face .
"I'm sorry to worry you ,it wasn't my intention " I say while pulling her away from me ,and tears have already started falling on her face . It breaks my heart knowing how much pain I cause someone else especially when it's unintentional .
" Please don't cry because you'll make me cry " it comes out more as a whisper , I hand her my water bottle so she can drink and she does so .
" You've been through enough , I can imagine how much pain you are in now , not only the death of your best friend but also her relationship with Lucky , I just wish Lucky could be more considerate about the pain that you are in , I'm really sorry , no one deserves this Promise . Not even Lucky deserves you . I .... " I zoned out from then , I couldn't even hear anything else . When she mentioned Lucky and Dile having relationship ,my body went hot to the touch of her words .
" What did you saying ?" I ask her softly ,my body is already hot to the touch , it is slowly heating up .
" I didn't mean to insult him but the way he is making you feel right now is honestly unfair " she says ,tears roll down my face " Did you just say he had a relationship with Dile " I ask .
" Well yes he did , for months, I mean you know this of course , I don't know if he was trying to ease the pain of loosing Dile forever by being with you or what . But I can see he really loves you , problem is that all he has is broken ,it was once owned by another woman and you mending all that was once Dile's will break what you have ,it will destroy for another man and everything you have now will belong to Lucky. Beware Promise " she says clearly not hearing her loud mouth balb ,I am already fuming at this point
"You insensitive little bitch , leave me the fuck alone !" I say angrily and it shocks her , I stand up and grab my bag off the grass
" Bathong Promise ? What did I do now ? " she asks clearly confused .
" Nxn " I remark and walk away . And more tears run down my face , I try to stop them but they water my face with the forbidden love for Lucky . I speed up my pace so no one notices me , I hide at the Teachers smoking zone and luckily there are no teachers there so I let out my tears .
I try to catch up with my tears and my breathing but they are racing uncontrollably , My whole Bosom has been ripped out my heart all by Dile , it just doesn't make any sense , Lucky and Dile ? How ?
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Flashback
" I wonder how sex feels like ? " I ask Dile like a curious cat
" I want my first to be with Lucky " she giggles and just nods .
" If only you had the guts to tell him , it's so easy honestly . " She says , half rolling her eyes ,we are both laying on her bed , starring into each other .
" Girls who aren't virgins are so lucky , having to enjoy sex whenever , how I wish . Mostly with Lucky , that one will be my first " I say while blushing and she just giggles .
" You're still young , you literally just turned 18 ,don't rush it " she says
" I know but I want Lucky " I pout my lips like a baby , and she just laughs and strokes her delicate hands upon the side of my face .
" Lucky is yours , he'll be your first " she says and I just smile .
" And then we'll get married and you'll be my maid of honour at our wedding " she laughs uncomfortably ,
" Am I boring you with Lucky ?" I ask holding back my laugh , " Yes !! " she bursts into laughter and I join her .
" Lucky this ,Lucky that ! Yoh everyday !! " I just laugh and playfully tug her .
YOU ARE READING
Angel waiting to go home .
Mystère / ThrillerAfter my best friend is molested and later commits suicide in the hands of my crush , I seek closure in the worst way possible by tagging along many worthless souls through my rollercoaster through Hell which leads to many of my mental complications.
