Angel waiting to go home .

Greed

" So why are you here Lucky ? " , I asked him .

" I feel like I didn't get through to you in class and I really needed you to hear me out . " He replies .  We walk slowly to the direction of his house . I polished my shoes during the last period but they have already collected dust but Lucky's shoes on the other hand still look spotless. When we pass by the School in the direction to his house , I can feel nearly everybody's eyes on me , I really hate the attention but Lucky on the other hand is embracing it . I've never been seen with another boy this cosey and somewhat it's comforting that Lucky is the first . 

" Lucky if I wanted you to get through to me , I would've allowed it . My heart and mind are really not at a good state at this moment and you're just adding on to my problems " I say calmly . " And why are we walking towards your house ? " I add . 

" So I'm a problem now ? Come on Promise don't be like that . I like you and I want to be with you , I want you to be mine because Promise I really can't see my life without you , and I'm just going to put my bag down then I'll walk you back home. "  I burst into laughter , mocking laughing one might say . " Can't see his life without me " I laugh even harder, we've spent only three days together and his telling me this shit . I can feel his embarrassment as he glances at me , when the Sun hits his eyes they turn into a hazel colour , the Suns glance so bright it hits the Apex of his eyes and he finally looks away . " What's funny ? " he asks confused . 

" The fact that you're lying , you can't see your life without me ? What kind of sick lie is that ? And I'm not walking you back home , and just because we fucked does not mean I'll run back to your Ass every time you smile at me . You raped my best friend and also took what was never meant for you in first place , so what more do you want !? "  I snap at him .

" Promise , I never raped Thandile I swear . I said what I said out of spit ... " I walk away before he can even continue , I can't handle that name falling from his lips and I don't want to start crying in front of everybody so I'd rather just walk away ...

" Promise ! " He calls for me . " Promise wait !" He yells once again , and at this exact moment I can feel everybody's eyes on me as I pass by the School once again . I can't stop the tears from rolling out of my eyes and falling down my face , " Ollelang o " I hear people whispering as I walk past them . I increase my pace and the more I try to hurry up I feel as if I am not reaching my destination, I feel the road extending , my body heating up as eyes glare at me , I mop the fountain on my face ... " Promise , what's wrong ? " some girl asks me , I look at her and walk away . How the Hell does she even know me ? I turn around thinking that Lucky is following me but his not and his image is lost in the crowd of Blue and White . I eventually reach Home and change out of my uniform , I switch on the TV and start watching cartoons with my little sister . After hours of cartoons I get up and start doing my Homework's , I go from Functions , to Evolution , to the crash of the Berlin wall and finally the rights and responsibilities of Consumers . By the time I'm done , I doze off ...

The Moon grabs it's stars and makes way for the Sun . I'm woken up by the alarm , I quickly get ready for School and leave . Today is Friday and I'm happy to just get this week over , while I'm styling my hair my mother walks up to me , " Have you made any friends yet ? " she asks . I am so focused on my hair to even pay attention to her , my hair is very long , and straight , my hair is something I never compromise on , it always looks great . " Promise ? " My mothers calls me again . 

" No mom , I haven't made any friends . We'll talk about this Afterschool " I say and immediately turn my focus to my hair . 

" Okay " she says and walks away . Today I decide to wear my tightest pants just to tease Lucky , I leave quickly before my mother can notice them ...