Daggers in our Heart

Forty-Second

Forty-Second

Good thing, it's nothing that serious.

I'm sitting at the side of my bed as I watch Joong who's sleeping peacefully. He got a high fever and now, he's really burning.

When he passed out, I immediately called Earth's number, asking for help to carry Joong until where his car was parked.

It was Engineer Ben who confirmed to me that Joong is really sick since yesterday but still continued to attend his work and look for me. I felt guilty because of that.

I immediately drove Joong's car, going straight to my unit. He gained consciousness after a while but he's still weak that I have to assist him 'til we reach my room. There, I made him lay on my bed to completely rest, wrapping him up with my thick blanket and he fastly fall asleep again.

Now, he's sleeping with a slightly wet towel in his forehead to cool down his temperature. I'm just here, holding his hand without having plans to let go of it. I miss this feeling. I miss being this free.

"I never unloved you.. I never fall out of love no matter how hard I tried to get over you and set you free"

His words repeated on my head as I brush his hand lightly.

"Why did you only confess that now?" I whispered reminiscing all that happened between us.

Damn, so all this time, we're just hurting each other? Dumb!! I'm so embarassed.

If I know that.. if he said that earlier than this then we don't have to go all through it all. But then, I am also at fault for not speaking up earlier than this. I can't put all the blames in him.

Both of us are really at fault for making each other suffer a lot. We made each other bleed, not knowing that we're both stucked in that love we never quit.

"But it doesn't matter. Atleast, we are now both cleared" I added as I smiled again.

Oi shia?! I'm feeling so energetic and happy!! My eyes are still sore and feeling so heavy from crying so bad earlier but still, I can now manage to smile so wide as if nothing happened.

And Joong is sick!! What am I smiling here?!

I leaned forward a bit to plant a kiss on Joong's forehead, cheeks, nose, and lips before I smiled sweetly while watching him closely as he sleep.

Help, I can't stop myself from advancing!!! If I also catch fever for kissing him, remind me that it's all my fault and not Joong's.

"How can you still look attractive while sick?"

I smiled to myself as I start to imagine how things will suddenly turn after this. There will be a lot of changes and improvement between me and Joong and I'm very sure of that. We will be back.

I just stopped all my imaginations when the door of my room suddenly opened that made me direct my attentions to it. There, I saw Krist standing, looking so shocked at me then to Joong who's peacefully sleeping.

He looks like he rushed all the way from his work to here.

"Krist.." that's all I can say as I stare back to him, not having enough words. He suddenly smiled but his face looks sad that made me feel a hint of sadness.