Daggers in our Heart

Twenty-Fifth

Twenty-Fifth

"A penny for your thoughts" Krist suddenly snap his fingers in front of me that made me got pulled back to reality.

"Don't tell me you're still thinking about that boy you met inside FASTHOURS? What a player!! Can I remind you something? You're still seeing Fluke. Learn to change man!!" he added and I just roll my eyes at him.

"We're both not serious. He's using me for fame, I'm using him for entertainment. Aren't you used to that kind of set-up I'm always in? As if it's new to you" I annoyingly answered him.

That's true. No one here, except my friends, treated me like a person. I always feel like a trophy and that shit isn't fine with me. Everyone is kind, everyone gives me what I want just because I am their Joong Archen. If I'm not, would they still do that?

The only real here are my friends. They are the only honest ones. They know the real me. They badmouth me face-to-face if needed and that's what I like about them.

While some, even those who I used to flirt with, are using me to have something to brag, only my friends remained real, with pure intentions.

"You can't use that reason on me. You're really ruining your image in the univ, aren't you afraid that it will affect your goal? That's a big loss" He asked again.

Damn, he got a lot of wonders connecting to each other. Well that's Krist, that's how his brain works.

"It's in the potential and intelligence, not in dating behaviors" I simply answered as I go back to thinking what just happened last week.

"Excuse me.. The place is full, all the seats are occupied. Do you have someone with you? Is this seat taken"

He's cute, small and innocent. His voice sounds good, like a music to my ears and his smiles are so damn bright!! I can't even stare at him without having my heart in chaos.

Shia!! Why is he bugging my mind everytime?! I think he got me for real!!

"You know what I'm thinking here? You fall inlove at first sight" Krist pointed at me and I just laughed at him sarcastically.

"Are you Gun now? Full of dramas, is that thing even real?" I asked even though I myself... is thinking of that possibility too.

Because if not, then why am I thinking of his smiles before I go to sleep? If not, why do I see his cute face before I got to sleep and right after I wake up? If not, why do I feel like getting serious if it's with him?

"Who knows? He might be your karma. You want to see him again, right? I'm sure it would be very hard for you because you're a jerk and God will punish you this time for that!! You won't get what you want. Hi Karma~" he honestly teased. See? He didn't even filter his words. He called me jerk right in front of my face!!

"So as Singto, you won't have him back" I teased back and that's when he eyed me sharply.

"Come on!! Don't include me here, it's all about you!! What are your plans huh?" He asked, directing the topic back to me. And this is what I'm stressing about from the past days.

"I don't know, I'll find him?" I asked. Is that even possible? I don't even know his name. Shit!! Why do I even feel shy to ask his name before he left? Now it's all fucked up!! Me? Shy? It's not normal!!