Daggers in our Heart

Twenty-First

Twenty-First

"Are you going home to your house for Christmas?" Joong asked as he close the book he's reading. From resting his back, he moved 'til the edge of my bed.

I walked lazily, approaching him to sit in between his legs. I hand him my towel and he knows exactly what to do. He started to dry my hair like it's really his duty to do that every night after I shower myself.

"I don't think I will. Why? Are you going home for Christmas?" I asked back while he's busy doing his job.

Well, we got a hair blower but I feel like drying my hair this way tonight. Perhaps, I rarely have him do it for me.

"Maybe? Do you wanna come with me?" He asked back and I just nodded without thinking twice.

My first plan is to go home to spend Christmas with Fluke and Cooheart but after what happened earlier, I don't think I want to see them... or even just Fluke. I also don't think Fluke wants to see me. It's mutual.

I remained silent while playing my fingers on Joong's lap, tapping it without a pattern like I'm playing some keyboards. He seems serious in what he's doing so both of us just stay silent for awhile.

"You're done" he stopped drying my hair after a while and put the towel on my lap. I was then about to stand up but he snaked his arms around my waist.

"But I'm not yet done" he whispered in my ears as he fit his head on my shoulders.

"Oii~ I wanna sleep in this position, is that possible?" He asked sweetly again while his eyes is fixed in the mirror which reflects the both of us.

I just remained staring at him, not giving any words. I feel drained and tired, I can't even smile. I haven't recover from my worries yet. It's still attacking me.

When he probably noticed my uneasiness, his fingers made it's way to massage my temples.

"My baby looks so stressed. What happened today that made you that stressed, huh? Did you go all out in your class? Do you have some papers that you can't finish in the right time? Let me finish that for you so you won't frown like that again. You look like you're about to cry" he asked while still massaging that part of my head.

I smiled at his effort and that's when he stopped massaging me to go back at snaking around. It's melting me again. Everything he do is actually melting me right now.

"Nothing, I'm just tired. I just need to gain my energy back" I answered.

Not tonight. I still haven't decided on that yet. Maybe after celebrating Christmas? Or New Year? He'll understand me, right? He can always understand and accept me because he's Joong, he loves me the most.

"Okay then.. do you want to sleep now" he said, slowly letting go of me. I remained seated in between his lap while he used both his arms to support his weight, giving a small space between us.

"I don't wanna sleep yet" I answered and he chuckled, still on that position.

"Nine, you can't drink coffee tonight. You should sleep now. How can you gain your energy back?" He sarcastically ask and an idea came into my mind.

"Through this"

I quickly changed my position. Now I'm kneeling in the space between his lap where I used to be seated. He didn't move a bit, still supporting his weight using both of his arms while looking up on me.