Daggers in our Heart

Twentieth

Twentieth

I really can't believe that our fight that specific night will lead us to name this unnamed thing between us. I wanna laugh at myself realizing how stupid I am, believing what I saw given that I didn't saw all the things that really happened. I'm very shallow. It's making my whole body shake in cringe. It's a lesson learned.

It's really true that one mistake can overpower a lot of good things that you do. Joong has been proving hisself to me, doing a lot of things to have my trust. It's so bad of me to judge him again with just me misunderstanding things. You know I can be dumb, I can be stupid, I can be both sensitive and insensitive.

But nevermind, it's now part of the past.

"How's your day?" I asked Joong the moment he entered our unit. I'm having my chin rested at the sofa's backrest as I watch him remove his shoes. He got classes for today while I don't have one, I just stayed here and wait for him to be finally home.

He tiredly sat beside me that made me sat properly so he can have enough space. Slowly, he rested his head on my shoulders, looking like a big baby wanting attention from his mom.

I chuckled as I brush his hair softly. I've been use to him doing this everyday. For how long have we been dating officially? I guess it's about three to four months now. I didn't even notice that time is flying so fast and I'm getting used to his every actions. It's almost the year end and we're going strong in this relationship.

It's a low-key type. We don't brag about the both of us dating. If someone will ask then yeah, we will never deny. If no one ask then who cares? We're contented in finally having each other officially. We're contented in being happy together with our friends. Everything is going so great!!

"I feel like sleeping here all night" he answered instead, hugging me sideways.

"Alright, you can sleep already. But we have to eat dinner first. What do you want? I'll cook it for you so you can rest" I asked, spoiling him.

"Nah! Can we just order something? I don't want to let go now" he sulkingly pleased as he tighten the hug even more. I slightly kissed his hair. Looks like this big baby is in his mood to be very clingy again.

"You're acting like a baby again. Fine!! Give me your phone, I'll order something" I showed him my palm and he quickly put his phone in it.

It's our hands in his lockscreen and our picture in his homescreen. Everytime I saw both, I can't stop myself from smiling. I am so grateful to have this big baby to hold my hands and stand beside me all the time.

"What are you smiling at?" He asked and that's when I noticed that I'm smiling with my thoughts again.

"Nothing" I laughed, getting guilty even if he's not accusing me of  anything.

"Really? You look like you're thinking about me again. Nine, I'm just beside you!! You can freely do whatever you want to do with me. I won't refuse. I won't complain" he renewed himself from hugging me as he look at me like he's so proud of himself.

"Do you wanna know what I'm thinking?" I asked and he nodded. I pat his head softly and sweetly before answering.

"You can't sleep in my room tonight!! You've been sleeping over for a week now and I can't get enough sleep" I complained, pushing his head away, but he just laughed at me.

"You can't say no, I have spare keys" he reminded and gestured his hand as if he's holding the key to my room.

And that's the reason why I can't prevent him from sleeping over. Even if I act mad because of him invading my room, he'll just jump on my bed and hug me until I gave up my anger. Isn't he crazy?!