Daggers in our Heart

Author's Last Words

From: Gnet

I can't believe that Daggers in our Heart finally ended. I can't believe that this J9 Fanfiction has come to it's end and I hope that the ending satisfies everyone.

Firstly, I want to thank everyone who keeps on supporting my works from the very first one until here. You guys are my inspiration to pursue and continue writing and producing fanfictions of our beloved J9. I would love to thank everyone for giving the story good feedbacks that motivates me to write. Thank you for making me feel that every chapters, every stories that I produce are all worth reading🥺❤

Daggers in our Heart is really the one which I had a hard time in writing. This story is the most energy draining and tiring to write, honestly. Proofreading for 3-4 hours before publishing the latest update and writing another one for 5-7 hours after. All in all, I've been spending 10-11 hours everyday in this story and I think all the hardwork payed off.

As you can notice, the chapters are all longer than what my previous stories have. DIOH goes with the minimum of 3.5K words and maximum of about 9K words. Unlike my previous stories which contains a minimum of 1.5K every chapters and maximum of 3K words. And Joong's POV here is crazy!! 17.5K words which I am so proud that I might sound bragging now so I wanna apologize in advance for that, I'm just overwhelmed hehe😳🤦‍♀️

This story is the one which made me cry a lot and experience writer's block almost everytime but I think, it's all worth it.

Here, I just wanna share how did I came up in writing this one and what I've been through.

Honestly speaking here, I got zero plans in everything. I started to write it because one night, I imagined the break up scene [Joong found out that Nine and Fluke's plan] and it made me cry a lot. I feel the urge to share it to everyone and that time, a lot are messaging me, asking for another fanfiction so I feel like "okay, they've been waiting for so long now, I should give it to them because they deserve to receive another J9 fic"

Originally, the title of this story is Having You Near Me (which changes because it sounds a bit corny) and the only scene that I can think of at that time are:

• J9 break up scene on the beach (which is also changed as time pass by because the original one is  a break-up in a party at the univ)
•How they will meet after years of parting ways
•How Fluke will came up with their revenge plans

Obviously, I started to write this one without having clear plans on how will it end or what will really happen unlike when I'm writing the SAC and EWCM where I got even just a pint of idea for the ending. I started to write this fiction only having plans on what will happen at those three scenes I've mentioned.

The original plan is also to have it with only 15 chapters and finish it with that until everyday that I'm writing an extra draft, a scene will be flashing in my mind and I'll find my fingers typing it, turning every scenes into words to reach everyone. Everyday, there are some scenes that demands me to insert them so the story will look more realistic and the process will look like it can really happen in real life. There, I told myself "oh, I should make it to 25 chapters" but then.. here we are, having 45 chapters all in all. I'm a clown, right?

Every chapters that consist this story are a bit unplanned so of you will notice, there are lots of characters suddenly appearing. If you will notice, almost all chapters got conflicts. If you will notice, there are a lot of problems as if there are no straight plot.

It made me go crazy too, like how the readers reacts everytime something happens unexpectedly.

And you can sometimes notice me in the comment box apologizing for the content as I sometimes find it a flop and I don't want to disappoint you guys.

What I want to thank for again is that every update, all of you are showering me with lots and lots of feedbacks that made me continue. There is this one time where it came into my mind that "Oh no, I think I can't continue this story anymore. I lack scenes to push my characters to move forward. I lack drafts, I lack time. What if I'll stop? What if I'll be on hiatus to clear my head?" but there you are guys, always making me feel that I have you in my back. Always making me smile and get enough courage to write and think. There are you guys always knocking on my rotten brain with your heart warming comments.

A simple 'Thank you' and 'I love you' from my readers everytime I publish a new chapter is really making me smile so wide🥺❤ It means a lot to me and I also want you to know that I feel the same, I thank you and I love you too.

Everytime that stopping the story came into my mind, I will only re-read your comments and tell myself that "Bitch, you shouldn't stop thinking like that. They are waiting for your everyday updates so prove yourself that their waitings won't go to waste. You shouldn't leave them hanging and continue what you started".

It always goes on repeat. Proofreading, publishing, thinking what to include on the chapter that can move the story, writing whatever  it is that connects to the last part and will connect and give me idea on what to include in my possible next part.

Until finally, we ended. The last two chapters surprised me too as I didn't expect that J9 will suddenly need a son in the scene😆❤ One day I am like "I wanna cry, DIOH is ending. The last chapters should be worth it, the last chapters should be fulfilling and heartwarming. The last chapters should satisfy my readers because I made them cry and be problematic about the plot. My readers deseve a happy and justified ending. But how?"

And so I ended it with that. Bittersweet moment because finally, J9 ended up together with a happy family but at the same time, the book is closing because they already got the ending they deserve.

Again, thank you so so much for staying 'til the end of their rollercoaster journey!! You guys are really the best!!

Now, I still don't know when can I publish another fanfiction as my classes will resume this January 11, 2021 and according to my schedule, it will go straight until May (which is April and May are suppose to be our Summer Vacation but Covid19 ruins it err) but as what I always promise, everytime a book close, something new will open. An ending story signals a new beginning.

I hope that time, I will still have you to share my stories to. I hope I can still have everyone to read how my next stories' plot will go. I promise that next ones will have more straight and polished plot to improve myself and to make everyone happy!!

Don't be shy, let us all be friends🥺❤ I met a lot of new friends here in Wattpad and I am so happy for that!! I would love to have everyone sliding on my DMs, be it in Wattpad, IG or Twitter. I really love chitchatting with you guys and thank you for asking me to be your friend as I am so shy to do the same.

For now, I think this is enough as I don't want to bore everone with my very very long last words😆😆 I just want to share the reason why the story is a bit prolematic, why the story is so long that made the readers to stress over the character's development and all. I hope you now get it and the questions in you mind are now answered.

Again, I would like to hear from everyone for the last time. How's the story? What did you like and dislike about this story? What do you want to ask? Things like that, feedbacks answering that can give me more idea on how to improve things in writing more and more fanfictions.

This is Gnet, officially ending Daggers in our Heart.

Til our next fanfictions, see you!!! I love you!!!❤❤