You pulled away from Sirius, and tried to stand up, but couldn't because your head was still in too much pain.
"Remus, wait! Come back! Please...." you said, but he was already gone. You sad back down on the bed in defeat, and buried your face in your hands.
He saw Sirius kiss me...
You began to cry, and Sirius stood up. "I'm gonna go after him, alright? Just..stay here. I need to fix this. I'm sorry, (y/n). This is all my fault.." he said, and then ran off.
"But wait..Sirius don't blame yourse-" you cut yourself off, as he had already ran out the door. You sighed, and laid back down on the bed.
Why do I always ruin everything....
You buried your face in the pillow, and your tears began to soak it. You screamed into the pillow in anger, and laid there, absolutely defeated.
You already hated yourself for who you were, and now...you've ruined everything. You love him...he did so much for you. And now you just ruined everything.
You couldn't go chase after him either, because you probably wouldn't make it very far. Your head was pounding at this point, and it felt like someone had smashed it with a hammer. And as you cried, it only seemed to trigger the pain more and more, and it was horrible.
Eventually as you sat there in bed, everything went dark. You must've blacked out from the crying, stress, and the amount of pain you were in...
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*Sirius' POV*
I told her how I felt about her. I mean, I didn't mean to, since I knew she fancied Moony. But..I couldn't help it. She makes me happy. But, I think I was over thinking a bit..
Maybe it was just the thought of having someone as close as her. Yeah, sure, im close with Prongs, Lily, Wormtail and Moony, but not as close I am with (y/n). I guess it's nice to have someone as funny, adventurous, caring, sweet, and amazing as her..
Obviously, she didnt fancy me. She told me her heart lies for Moony. I'm happy for them. But then...I guess I got caught up in the moment..I kissed her.
I didn't even mean to, it just happened.
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full moon ~ remus lupin x reader
Fanfictionit's your first day at hogwarts but you're a 5th year. you've always hated yourself, and thought you were a monster. that is until you meet this boy..
