The Revenge of HER

Sigh!

008.

Lorraine Selepe.

I sat in my room looking through my phone , I sat alone going through all the images I had of me and Mandi together ,starting from when we were in highschool together going into our adulthood.

How I lost my best friend was so strange , we hadn't even buried her because they said her body was not found , they could be a chance her body had turned into ash , my heart broke and yearned to hear Mandisa say once more "Listen here b****es I'm not your stepping stone nor am i your anchor so you will not disrespect me uyandiva ndi'uMandisa kai one!"

And every single person that heard her say that would laugh , Mandisa was my saviour if she was not present in my life when i got an abortion then i don't know what could've happened.

I had been raped and Mandisa stood bedside me she nursed me to health and helped keep my secrets safe, my parents never found out about my violation nor bout my pregnancy now I lost her.

I lost my stepping stone and my anchor , I lost my sanity, if she dies then I die , I follow her ...let me follow my best friend i can't live without her i can't , I walked into my kitchen to take another bottle of liquor in my cabinet when I got a knock on my door.

"In a minute." I wiped the tears from my cheeks and placed the bottle down when I opened the door I rolled my eyes "What the f*** do you want?"

He walked towards me and put his arms around me and I felt it , I felt the pain ...so I cried , I cried to the point where he had to guide me to the couch to sit, i remembered Mandisa sitting here and I let out another river , I cried....i wiped my mat it still had her blood on it and I just stared at it, "What do you want Kgothatso?" I asked as I stood up to go open the bottle I took out the cabinet and i took a swig from the bottle.

Kgothatso kept quiet and sat there looking at the blood on the mat "Who's blood is this?"

"It's Mandisa's the last reminder of my best friend." I sighed and walked towards him with a glass of wine that I had poured for him, he shook his head no so I gulped the drink.

"It's your brothers fault all because his a coward, just because Mandisa abused him...psh as if I believe that ," I took another swig "Abuse is real Lorraine , we can't turn a blind eye to it just because a man is going through it."

"So! His got bulks of meat on his arms why didn't he fight her off?" Kgothatso sighed and just sat back with his hands on his head , I felt bad but I had to defend the honour of my best friend with all my power...even though I had non, I walked to the counter and drank from the bottle again , "And you know what , I don't care even your brother could die right now."

I said my words slurring , how many times did I actually drink today? Cause when I looked out the window Mandisa stood by my window waving to me, I wiped my eyes with the back of my hands and I looked again and she wasn't there...

Kgothatso stood up and I looked at him "Where are you going?" I asked walking towards him , "Stay...please," I said as i held my hands out to him so he could stay. He looked at me and smiled "Tell that b**** brother of yours to die anyway," his smile faded.

"I'm leaving Laur , tell me when you sober up," I don't know but his words made something in me feel angry for some reason "Tell me that when my friend comes back!"

"Stop it Laur! Stop it damnit Mandisa is gone , she's gone!"

"Yeah well f*** who's fault is that , I know it's not mine!" It became a screaming match between the both of us , the room filled with tense tempered words. "It's not yours, not mine ...not even Brandon's! It's Mandisa's she was driving intoxicated!"

"You take that back you wanna be artist! Your nothing but an idiot , look at you!" I said taking a swig to my bottle laughing , his eyes featured hurt and i continued laughing "Stay here being lonely b****!"

"I never needed you, I could've even pitied you and made you make love to me you sack of potatoes!" I shouted and he just laughed "Cause that's the typa hun,you are!" He walked out of the door and slammed it ...I looked at the door "Don't you dare f***ing slam my door boy!" 

I fell to the ground crying , i cried until i passed out with the bottle in my arms indicating i was alone,again.

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I woke up holding my throbbing head, somehow I was in my bedroom where I remembered i passed out midway in the kitchen and lounge area. I looked at the clock that lay right next to my bed, and it read 13:30 I had overslept and know I had babalas , ugh.

I looked at my phone but my battery was low , very low so I used it to make a call to my colleague Betty to tell her I wouldn't be coming in when the battery died on me.

Something in me flashed and I remembered all those horrible things I said to Kgothatso , I felt so bad but he has provoked me.

I sighed and stood up to take a bathe so I could visit Kgothatso and apologize for my behaviour.

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Her chapter was very short , okay not that short but short you catching my driff'

😔Poor Kgothatso man , mxm his really feeling Lorraine but she's a ,🤔 hai

Mandisa's death is really disturbing her.

Haaai , Ngoku eqesha ukuba ndithi i'm your girl kemopedi signing out with a that's what's banging babies 💗🤟🏾👆🏽😙