The Revenge of HER

Strengthening

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Brandon Mchaba:

I waited on Shaquille to tell me with my patience running thin the more she kept quiet, i wanted to know who put my fiancé and my kid in danger and i wasn't up for that.

"Brandon..."

"Shaquille."

"Look, so lately I've been uhm... harassed by people wherever i go but the person or a few people that have constantly been on my case is your brother and his girlfriend."

"Kgothatso and Laur!?" the hell! As if - "Wait,i can see you're already brewing but it's alright, I understand why they worried bout you, I mean hearing you accuse me of harming you, along with your brother doing the same really hurt cause its like why would you think I would harm you after what we've been through that's all I was saying."

"I'm sorry baby, I was so angry or nervous with what you would tell me that I blew,"

"No Brandon , you have been suspecting me for a while I've noticed ever since you came back from the hospital you haven't been as caring or loving as you used to , you're guarded and more distant, I noticed that could it be that you really think I could hurt you...do you see a resemblance of Mandisa in me?"

"Qu its not that I suspect you would harm me , its just that -"

"It's just that you don't trust me,"

"Qu-"

"Nah Brandon , I get the fact that your ego and your masculinity has been scarred or whatever but this thing of you acting as if you're the only one that's been hurt before or has been betrayed ends here. Me too I've been hurt you do realise that right, I have also been a victim of abuse by someone you once loved, I too have been scarred for life, if you thought me being with you was easy than you really haven't been paying attention. I find it difficult to love someone let alone genuinely give my all to you but I did end up loving you with my guard down, I tried loving that scar of your back but you keep on pushing me away, I risked it all cause I believe that I can help you...this..this doubt and obvious suspicion from you has me thinking what if i'm wasting my time with you?"

"Qu please listen, I never meant for that to come out like that , what I wanted to say was clouded by my past traumatic experiences please just don't give up on me, please...check I also apologise on behalf of my brother , Laur and everyone that has ever made you feel some typa way please just -"

" -Brandon you just don't understand, "she paused to breath , I watched her as she let out a laugh little by little, confusion now clearly visible on my face, why was she laughing? "You just don't understand Brandon, I don't want your sympathy I've had enough of that from all my experience and also what your forgetting is that Brandon I fell in love with you despite my distaste in relationships...you know that , a lot I have told in you in utter confidence and you accepted me...letting me in, actually wait."

"I just realised even though I was kept as your hidden sidepiece I stayed cause I stayed, cause I knew deep down that I could impact you , ye but lately I haven't been feeling special...hmf its like as soon as Mandisa died or something that special bond we had died along with her, you've been more secretive, more...more cold and I haven't been feeling like me, I am spiritually and emotionally drained by you..."

"Me?"

"Lol ye, you. It's like one minute you wanna love me but...but you're just not going to."

"I'm sorry Qu,"

"Me too Brandon, check I love you , don't get me wrong right but I feel like we need to step back and look at life differently genuinely think if we should continue this and to just escape from all this toxicity of Mandisa and her situation...this environment, this house...you. It all belongs to her respectfully...I'm still a visitor in all of this love, i'm a trespasser and...yup its what I guess has been bothering me."

"Qu, i'm sorry but this has opened my eyes, look,"i paused to hold her hands in mine for her to look at me in my eyes "I'm human...your human, I understand your dilemma but never ever in your life ever think that keeping in your emotions will bother me, phela to me the way I look at things I thought I was the only one being tortured and I understand that was selfish of me, I never asked how it was for you how you were handling everything and i'm really really sorry."

I opened up my arms for her to walk into them, she slowly walked towards me and put her head down, "I'm also sorry, I love you."

"I love you."

I kissed the top of her forehead, what an eventful day it was, I was shocked out of the hug by a buzzing in my pocket, I let go of Qu to get ahold of the buzzing phone to see a strange number.

"Hello, who am I speaking to?"

"Brandon Mchaba this is Detective Phule."

"Greetings Detective, is there a problem?"

"Actually yes, please come down to the station immediately."

"Sir-"

"Listen Mr Mchaba if it wasn't urgent I wouldn't be calling you personally now?"

"Of course I understand,"

He dropped the call without any further explanation, "What was that about?"

"I don't know Qu but then it has to be very important."

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