Be With You

Kabter 1

The feeling of being happy, confused and scared at the same time is making my self empty. I don't know how should I react. Should I be scared that, what if it is positive and the life of that baby is on me. Confused because, why would he do that? even though I don't recognize him, I just can't get it why he do it? Is he drunk? does Stefie knew him? or Stefie didn't know there's a guy who entered my room?

Patapos na akong mag-ayos nang may kumatok sa pinto. For the last time, sinuklay ko ang buhok ko bago dali-daling buksan ang pinto.

"Yes po?" I see my mom standing behind the door after I open it, she is greeting me with a wide smile plastered in her face. I can't help but to smile back at her.. When she always smiled at me like that. I feel, everything will be on their right place and being at peace.

"Jane just arrived. Aalis daw kayo."

"Okay po. Susunod na lang ho ako." I give her my reassuring smile and a thumbs up but before she could turn her back at me.

She asked.

"By the way, where are you both going?" should I tell her the truth? that we're going to the OB to check if I'm really pregnant? If I will tell here about that, she will be worried and be scared. I know she can't lose me, her only child. She love me so much to the point she's scared that I might disappeared. And I love her too because of that, I can't also bear to lose my mother, I already lose my father.

I can't tell the truth and tell a lie. If I'm gonna lie at her, she will be furious. It's more bad than to tell her that. So I decided to shut my mouth and shyly smile at my mom. She nodded with a smile.

'Sorry' I mouthed when I'm now facing her back, she already walking away from me.

Before I go down, I get my sling bag where I put my little things. Now I'm ready to go.

Habang pababa nang hagdan, ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang pagkakaba. Ramdam ko din ang pagkabasa ng aking palad at medyo panginginig ng binti ko, buti na lang at naka flats lang ako kung may lalala pa sa pagkanginig ng aking binti. Napagtagumpayan ko namang makababa sa hagnan nang hindi nahuhulog o madulas. Nadatnan ko si Stefie na naka-upo sa aking upuan sa sala, tulala ang ate mo. Tila ba ay may malalim na iniisip.

I poke her cheeks. "Hey," Nagulat ko ata s'ya dahil bigla s'yang napalayo. Hawak-hawak n'ya ang kanyang dibdib habang nanlalaking mata. Sa gulat n'ya parang nakakita lang ng multo ang peg?

"Jeez, why you startle me?" nakakunot noong aniya. I made a sad face and shrugged. I really didn't startle her, I just poke her. Nakakagulat pala 'yon. I didn't know.

Mula sa pagkakagulat n'ya, nagbago ang kanyang ekspresyon, mula sa pagkakagulat naging seryoso at pag-aalala ang kanyang naging tingin sa 'kin. I gave her a reassuring smile. We know what will gonna happened maybe a smile can at least ease her heart, like everything's gonna be fine.

"So, let's go?" she bit his lip and I can see that there's crystalized in her eyes. I can't help but to hug her.

"Omo Stefie, don't cry. You know...I'm gonna be okay." I softly said. She hugged me back. I put a small smile in my face. I know I will be. Sa paghiwalay namin, kita kong tumingin s'ya sa taas at pilit na pinipigilan ng kanyang pag-iyak. I chuckled.

"You know what? Let's go para malaman na natin. Gutom na din ako."

"Grabe, kakakain mo lang ata a." I shrugged. Nagpahatid kami sa mall na may malapit na hospital. Di kami pwedeng magpahatid mismo doon, alam kong nirereport nila kung ano mga ginagawa ko o di kaya kung saan ako pumupunta. Alam kong para sa 'kin yung lahat nang iyon dahil gusto lang naman ni mom na safe ako.

Tahimik kaming naghihintay tawagin papunta sa loob ng OB nang may tawagin si Stefie, dahil doon napatingin ako sa kanya.

"Ashi!" maligayang tawag n'ya sa isang lalaking nagka coat na white with his specs and a clipboard in his hand. I look at his face, he does have a red kissable lips, not that super red yung tama lang. I am examining his features when he look at me in the eye, I met his sexy dark brown eyes, if you ever meet his eyes you gonna melt like what I am feeling right now. I want hi-

W-wait... what the... why am I thinking like this? Omygad, this is not so me.

I avoided his eyes and touch my face. I feel my cheeks heated because of that thinking and also the way he looked at me. Habang ako ay nakayuko, hawak-hawak pa din ang aking mukha. Naramdaman ko ang isang taong papalapit. The way my heart beats faster, I think I know it is. I'm nervous.

"Why are you here?" kuryosong rinig kong tanong ni Stefie. Di ko pa din inaalis ang aking pagkakahawak dahil sa hiya, samahan mo pa ng nerbiyos.

"I'm a doctor, Stefie Jane." walang emosyon na rinig kong aniya. Napakunot ako ng noo dahil sa kanyang tono.

Oh, and he's a doctor? he looks good in his white coat and specs, and did he just called Stefie 'Stefie Jane'? She doesn't like it when someone called her Stefie Jane, she preferred only one name when you call her like just Stefie or just Jane.

"Whatever," ngayon naman, inalis ko na ang pagkakatakip sa 'king mukha dahil gusto kong makita ang pag-irap ni Stefie. I'm also being addicted to Stefie's rolling eyes. She looks adorable. Sa pagka-ikot ng kanyang mata, I can't help but to pinch her cheeks.

"You're so cute Stef~" I softly laugh. I don't care if somebody see me like this but she's really cute.

I can see his tiny smile. Kahit na di ako nakatingin sa kanyang direksyon, pansin ko ang ngiting iyon mula sa gilid ng aking mga mata. Kahit na medyo na wierdohan ako sa kanyang ngiti, ipinalig ko na lang ang aking ulo.

"That hurts you know," angal n'ya nang tanggalin ko ang mahinang pagkakakurot ko sa kanyang pisngi. Nagkibit-balikat ako.

But then we are not always like this, like being happy. There always a time we need to face it, the challenge in our life. Problems that only us can solve.

"Ms. Noriega," rinig kong tawag nung nurse. I look at Stefie.

"Let's go," I offer my hand and smiles.

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