I Am Here For You (IzuOcha)

Chapter 4: You Will Save Her

Dekus POV

"Deku... What's wrong?"

I shook a little bit at those words. That's a lot to unpack there. I look into her eyes. She seems determined to get an answer out of me, and Uraraka has one heck of a serious side. I held my breath and looked back at the stairs behind us. I saw her backpack and shoes sitting on the stairs. She had come this far to make sure I was okay...

My eyes soften as I look back at her. Her face was red, probably even more so then mine. I looked down at the connection between us Uraraka had initiated. It took everything in me not to pull away from her hands when I realized, not because I didn't like it... I'm just not used to it.

She seemed to see me look and almost pull away, as she tried pulling her hand away with a face of guilt. I gripped my hands harder to make sure she couldn't pull away. I won't let all of her effort go to waste. She went this far for me.

The best I can do is return the favor...

"Deku..." she said as she stared even deeper into my eyes. I take a deep breath and start.

"Ochaco-" and I already screwed up! I was still a bit thrown off from her calling me my first name a second ago, and now I made it awkward! Is she gonna think I'm weird? But she called me by my first name a second ago so that means it must be okay right? Right? Yea of course! But I may have made it clear that I was okay with it somehow, it's not like I didn't like it or anything, so I mean maybe she thought it was okay? But I haven't gotten a sign with her? Maybe she thinks I'm weird now, now how do I -

"Izuku, it's okay," Ochaco said. She was a deep shade of red at this point. "You can call me my first name..."

WAS I MUMBLING AGAIN???

I felt my head slump and my eye sight go blurry... I couldn't even get a single word through without going on some wild tangent. But she called me my first name again and she said it was okay. Get yourself together Izuku! She's being so patient with me, this late at night. Get your act together!

I straighten my head and look at Ochaco in the eyes again, I take a deep breath once again.

"Ochaco," I feel her hand twitch in mine, is she happy at that? "I left a little girl, who clearly was in pain willingly go back to her pain and suffering."

I already felt the tears welling up.

"I failed her. I failed as a hero. I told you I was going to be the greatest hero, that I wouldn't give up-"

"But Izuku you will!" Ochaco cut me off. She was on her knees now, full body facing me. She was no longer red and determination and seriousness were in her eyes. "Izuku you didn't fail at all! There was nothing you could have done-"

"I let her go!" I said with a slightly raised voice. It took Ochaco leaned back just a bit, her eyes a little bit wide. "I let her go. Rules or not I had her. I could tell she needed saving. She was in my arms Ochaco. Right now she could be killed over and over again, assembled and reassembled with Chisakis quirk! The endless pain and suffering of one little girl I could have helped her out of! I shouldn't have let her go back..."

Tears were falling down my face at this point. I was looking at our hands mine above hers. I could feel Ochacos eyes on me, I saw tears falling into her lap.

"Izuku..."

"I failed Ochaco... I failed to be a hero. And I kept going through the days since then as if nothing had happened! I didn't realize the severity of her situation! I lead a normal school life while she struggled. After that meeting... I though everyone in that room was disappointed in me. I was disappointed in me. I feel so much guilt welling up inside, I feel so heavy from my own mistakes. And I almost made more! If Aizawa- Sensei hadn't given me permission I would have broken my promise to Asui! I would've broken my promise to you and the class! I even made you worry about me to where you had to follow and find me because of my guilt! I thought you were so disappointed in me, just a worthless deku-"