💞Diary of a Genderqueer💞

My life is a mess

"I will always be the gay cousin."

Hey its Dino. And its 1:56 on technically, a Tuesday morning.

I just cant fuckin sleep. Maybe cause I'm a wreck? Insomnia? Dysphoria? Questioning if I'm poly? Quite possibly, a mix of all of the above.

The scariest thought to me is that even though that mix is scarier than a molotov cocktail being thrown at me, it's better than 2019 ever was. Even if I cant remember it.

My dad described my life unironically as a dumpster fire in our conversation of my desperate cravings to commit arson. Like, full on dumpster fire. And yk paired with my therapists conclusion I had genuine auditory hallucinations, I dont doubt that at all anymore.

My life has always been a little chaotic, sure. But the older I get it seems my own mind is out to get me?? Like I cant catch a break at all.

But maybe that's a topic for another day. Let's talk about what I've been up to, or what you've been up to, I love to interact with comments <3

You ever feel so gay that its comical? Like idk just the thought of gay makes me laugh sometimes, its hilarious. If you cannot tell I am ✨loopy✨

That's better than when I was full on crying a couple hours earlier 😭✋

My phone should be taken away for the greater good of all of humanity?? I swear imma end up doin something stupid one day ajdnakfnsjsb good thing this is under my alt email.

So I went on a rant/vent thing about a toxic person in my life I'm trying to cut out again. You know what i have the right to rant a lil bit more.

Let's call this person... Piss Baby. Piss Baby, for lack of a better term, is a bitch.

My short relationship with them was awful, and their blatant disrespect and disregard for boundaries and the mess they leave behind is incredibly baffling. Just how one can be so oblivious to the obvious distress you cause is just insane to me????

But that's that, no need to give Piss Baby attention.

I'll talk to you when I have a more rational thought process.

~Dino☆