💞Diary of a Genderqueer💞

a compilation of why i shouldnt have a phone

Mmmmmm me gusta.

Hey bitches I'm back from the dead.

I'm sure it comes as a surprise to you, or not, probably not. But my mental health didnt really shift, it just became bearable. So I present to you, this 1,695 word shit storm. I thank you. Good day.

Its 10:42 on a Tuesday morning, of the second of Feburary this is like what, 12 hours after I declared my break? Smashing really.

Hello its Finn, but from the ✨past✨. Why is this happening you ask? Let me break it down.

My life is built on creating content, d u h. So while I'm on break, fixin up that noggin of mine. I'm going to update this draft every time I get some motivation to update you on my life. That is what this book was made to do after all.

Mom and me are supposed to go get brunch when she gets back from her yoga class, meanwhile what I'm going to be doing is drinking coffee and trying to complete my school work yk? I'll probably sneak some of the chocolate she brought back from Jurassic Park, that shit is good.

Most likely because my favorite chocolate is dark chocolate, anyways the bean juice awaits me.

Wednesday the third of February at 8:51 am What did I do last night? Well I did some sigils for peaceful rest because god help me if my insomnia gets worse.

Sure it was peaceful. But I might or might not have fallen down a deep, deep, asmr rabbit hole, and honestly, I don't even know how. Tis' the greatest mystery of my 2021 experience.

Now keep in mind, this is not a regular thing lmao, this is not normal, I usually find asmr weird, but with an expansive and ever growing internet access, a bitch gets curious.

I also spoke with a candle, and asked it some questions about the crows I've been seeing following me everywhere. (1:49 pm of the third of February) That was a very crazy sentence, hold on. I'm a witch, a baby witch, working with the druid side. That's what that means.

10:09 of the fifth of February, Friday.

Okay so it's been like two days. Yeahhhh my motivation tanked. Wednesday I was fine, and working on my story and shit and just, nope. Okay I'm going to recap some stuff I guess? Today I was supposed to go to school (hell) again but the snow saved/ruined it. I don't get to see Tommy, but I do get a day at home.

I got like three hours of sleep last night, I didn't tell my partner (or friends, sorry Mum and Tommy) but I was mostly just up thinking about my t r a u m a and trying to silently have another mental break down/sob session ig? Idk I'm kind of pathetic.

Oh hey the dog is here now :)! Say hello to Rambo everyone!! anyways, continuing with my life...

I'm dying my hair probably on Saturday and I'm quite excited for it, it's gonna be epic. I mean, when I cut my hair in august it went pretty dark, but not brown like I wanted, it's like a dark mousey blonde.

What am I doing rn? Well I just finished school, and I want to eat lunch but it's too early. The worst part is actually look acceptable today :( I have my tie-dye hoodie on with my favorite jeans. I have cat socks too!

Whatever it's fine, guess I have to spend my time in a good outfit alone :( *continues lip syncing to the cuphead rap*

Oh hey random note have you guys ever been in a vintage store? Bruhhhh those are so fun! I went once with Bowie (hi bowie :)) and she bought a stop sign. I wanted to get a mini gay flag but Mother said no. The Gremlin begged for stuff too, and he actually got something like wtf??? I think he got a string puppet he broke really quickly. I wonder if Bowie still has that stop sign?