💞Diary of a Genderqueer💞

The Goblin Bois Dreams

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𝕋𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕔𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕒 𝕤𝕠𝕝𝕕𝕚𝕖𝕣
𝕎𝕙𝕠 𝕔𝕒𝕣𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕤 𝕒 𝕞𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥𝕪 𝕤𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕕
ℍ𝕖 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕖𝕒𝕣 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕔𝕚𝕥𝕪 𝕕𝕠𝕨𝕟, 𝕠𝕙 𝕝𝕖𝕚-𝕠𝕙 𝕝𝕒𝕚-𝕠𝕙 𝕃𝕠𝕣𝕕
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ℍ𝕖 𝕨𝕚𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕖𝕒𝕣 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕔𝕚𝕥𝕪 𝕕𝕠𝕨𝕟, 𝕠𝕙 𝕝𝕖𝕚-𝕠𝕙 𝕝𝕒𝕚-𝕠𝕙 𝕃𝕠𝕣𝕕

Surprise! Two uploads back to back. :)

I know I uploaded yesterday, but are you guys really upset? I bet not-

First order of business, the necklaces came!!! Tommy and me are really excited! I plan to wear it every day!

I wanna thank Tommy so much for it as well! She didn't have to buy it and she did so I thank her. I really hope Mother let's me see her this weekend.

I've added a lot to my playlist today, and me and Tommy called for like six hours to do school work and do a stupid math quiz. Yeah thanks Ms. [Redacted] really helpful that you edited the instructions after we turned it in.

I have to go to school tomorrow and I'm excited! Except for digital learning II, I fucking hate it in there. Least we get to listen to music, I get to fuel my addiction.

I swear, if you see that beast of a playlist you'll be shocked- it's really long.

We looked at Tommy's account and it was so funny- apparently she hadn't updated it in a while. It was so good omg the pfp-

I'm really content right now I think... I actually have some happiness going on in my life. I can smile thinking about who I have to see...

And this is where this post turns sappy. Wow the song I'm playing is fitting huh? Its Meet Me in the Woods by Lord Huron.

Like about ten months ago, maybe nine, I was probably at my lowest point since the summer of 2019. October, September, November, I was probably at my lowest since then. But right now. I think I'm doing okay.

I know I took a break for a week, I know I got sick from stress, I know I've been having headaches.

I know I've been having dysphoria.

But these people make it okay. _Local_disaster_ Goldiethesimp supremesadiee honkaubrey you guys make it okay.

Batman, Boop, my childhood best friend. They make it okay.

They make me so happy its unimaginable. I never thought I'd believe people care about me and they do. I dont even know how to put that into words.

Sometimes when I'm staying up late having my scheduled void time. I think about how I talked to one of you. Or how I want to see one of you. I genuinely think people are looking out for me right now.

Honestly didnt think I'd ever get teary writing one of these stupid parts, but here we are. Thank you. So much.

I love all of you, I love what you contribute, I love that I have people to talk to. Even if I dont act like it.

I just thought I'd say that.

Sometimes when I think of my friends  and partner, I think of being in a wide open field in that time between deep fall and summer. When its warm but not unbearable and when the breeze rolls around all you can do is just stop and feel it.

Discarded cans of monster, or other canned drinks. Maybe a mug of coffee sit in a neat pile on a blanket. And a small speaker is sitting there with music blasting from it. We could scream we could dance and run.

These people make me feel like I'm not an adult yet. How I'm a minor still, I'm doing minor things. I'm allowed to be a child. I dont have to shoulder responsibilities.

That's one of the best feelings I have. The serotonin is magical.

And you might not think this is important. Maybe for some of you it's a given, but appreciate it. It's not always there and it's a privilege. Such a fucking privilege.

And to the people I tagged (and the ones I didn't) knowing each and every one of you has been my greatest privilege. For some it's been short lived, for one it's been a whopper like- eight years? (Happy almost birthday mum, March Seventh will be epic.)

That's it. I hope it wasnt too boring.

See ya on the flip side!

~Finnie 🦕