💞Diary of a Genderqueer💞

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"isn't it funny to know other people exist? No no no no no respect!" -Destroy Boys

Hey it's Finn.

it issssss 10:46 on a Thursday morning, that's better than the last part right? right.

Nothing much has happened in the past two days, I have a new english paper i'm going to have to write, which isn't much of a struggle, I happen to like writing (duh). I also hate my Digital Learning II class, it sucks ass I'll tell you.

I heard the other digital learning class is fun, my luck is just fuckin sky rocketing huh?

Oh yeah, yesterday I got this good thing called social anxiety, she's fun. I woke up this morning, I realized I had to see certain people, (like Loud Mouth and Piss Baby, thankfully Loud Mouth isn't in any of my classes on those days) and got nauseous. Like, the thought of food, or anything really, made my stomach churn.

So yk what this fuckin baby witch did instead of taking the nonexistent medicine in my house? (Mother doesn't buy any, I'm dead serious. I had a 103 fever and she wouldn't give me anything a year ago-) I made tea, and I tried and failed to meditate on the bus. I should've known it wouldn't work. Thank god I wasn't reading anything (I'm prone to car sickness).

Lemme tell you that tea was m a g i c a l. I stuck it in the freezer for ten minutes before I left the house and that bitch was still burning my insides in science class (that's my second class, so like until 11:55 ish??). Thermal water bottles dude- like wtf.

Another symptom I got from good ms. social anxiety was violent shaking. I kid you not, I picked up an apple and that mf was shook. My legs were bouncing, I was fidgeting a whole bunch without stopping and my only thought was how much I wanted to leave.

Turns out, I'll be at Father's house for the upcoming week, which is pretty ironic considering my schedule screws him over, he gets every Thursday and every other weekend? He's only getting the week cause smart Mother decided to go do something in a pandemic, and travel to costa fucking rica. Wait isn't Costa Rica mentioned in Jurassic Park??? Yeah, Isla Nublar and Coco were connected to it, I didn't google that shut up-

Wanna know a cool fact about me? I have the entire jurassic park and world set at Father's house. I was a huge dinosaur nerd when I was like nine. My brother still is, my phase it coming back in the form of me being obsessed with cute dino hoodies and accessories. A bitch is weak for cartoon dinosaurs. Pretty sure I had like 9 lockscreens in my camera roll of just cartoon dinosaurs, it's amazing. 

I used to have toys too, I got them for Christmas, a couple years ago I gave them to my little cousin instead. Now I have a paper machete type thing, of a dinosaur on my desk (mum got him for me from target as a present this year, technically last year now, but thanks mum <3) I named him Leo if anyone was wondering. They weren't. 

So now what am I doing? Well it's now 11:02 on a Thursday morning, I am at home, procrastinating. That is what I do in my free time. I write, I ride a long board, I question everything about myself, I read- OH MY GOD WAIT!!!

I forgot to rant about my new favorite book, what is wrong with me oml-

It's called The Year Of The Witching. By Alexis Henderson! It's so good! The cite I read it on has an incredibly sketchy name but oh well. Just go to readanybook.com and it should be one of the books on the home page. It's quite a read and took me a good solid few weeks to get through, but it's so worth it I promise!

It's an older based society, with quite an old narrative, but also quite easy to understand. If you don't like slight gore or sorta graphic content then don't read it <3 but at least if you're not, give it a try :))

I've noticed my longer chapters don't get nearly as many completed reads, so I'll be hopping off now to do some school work lmao.

I'll catch you guys on the flip side, listen to jack stauber :D

~Finn 🏳️‍🌈