A Dream I Used To LOVE

Chapter 25

"How is she?" Chris stood right outside her room while I gently shut it.

"Sh... I'll tell you"

We walked towards the garden and sat on the grass-covered with dew. It was 4 in the morning and the sun was just about to rise.

I rested my head on his shoulder "She is asleep. She cried a lot but now she is much better. She ate something and I gave her medicine. Let her rest for some time" I held onto his arm. I knew his condition was no better "How are you feeling?"

"Kathy is so important to me and seeing her like that broke a part of me. She hardly has any happy memories all because of me" she exhaled in defeat "I couldn't do anything for her"

"Chris it wasn't your fault and she loves you. You have to stay strong while she is weak and I'm with you. Don't worry this will pass. You know all her happy memories have you in them. She just needs some time to heal"

"I can't lose her Addie. They are all I have" his eyes were teary "and you won't lose them" I caressed his face wiping the tears away.

Chris POV

"Thank you so much for coming Addie. I can't tell you how much that means to me" I turned around and wrapped my hands around her. I held onto her tightly as if my life depended on it.

She kissed me gently and then rested her head on my chest falling asleep. The sun was just about to rise and sitting there with her while nothing other than this made sense I couldn't help but smile, I really couldn't express how much her being there for me today meant.

And it all started with loving her...

"Chris" she spoke, her eyes still closed "what are you thinking about?" I laughed when I heard that question and within a split second I replied "You".

"Me, really" she got up and looked into my eyes "Why? I'm sitting right next to you" she smiled and I wanted to say 'I Love You' but I didn't. I didn't know how she'd react and sitting there before the sunset that moment was perfect and I didn't want to tamper with it whatsoever.

"Does Mia know about us?" I decided to change the topic before my feelings take over me. She almost jumped up, she sat between my legs while my hands were still wrapped around her. "Yes she does" 

"And does she like me?" I knew that Mia's opinion mattered a lot Audrey and I genuinely wished that Mia was as fond of me as my siblings are off Audrey. Audrey hesitated at first but upon my insisting she finally spoke "Mia likes you, by the way, I described you but she won't tell me how she feels about you till she doesn't meet you"

Audrey started shivering a bit, it was cold and the sun had still not risen I placed my jacket over her and she snuggled into it "Aren't you feeling cold? Your hands are cold" she held my hands between hers and rubbed them gently. I smiled, I just wanted to hold her tightly and kiss her.

"Here take this" she placed my jacket around my shoulder and then hugged me tightly "Now both of us won't feel cold" she kissed me gently. It felt as if she could read my thoughts. She opened her lips letting me in, kissing her felt amazing every time. Her hands were wrapped around me and my hands were on her waist and I pulled her closer to me. Our lips lost contact and I placed gentle kisses on her neck and shoulders. Her skin felt exceptional "Chris" she whispered in my ear sending a shiver down my spine.  

"Chris" I heard again only this time it wasn't Audrey, I turned around and Mrs. Scott stood there staring at us. Audrey immediately distanced herself feeling uncomfortable. I got up and excused myself.

"Is Audrey staying over?" she asked calmly "No we will be leaving soon for her house. I'll drop her" she didn't look pleased by my reply.

"She can drive by herself Chris" she stated annoyed by her presence.

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Mrs. Scott had seen us kissing and I was a bit embarrassed by the whole encounter. From the looks of it, Mrs. Scott and Chris were scuffling and I thought it was best for me to intervene.

"Sorry to interrupt, I'll just check up on Kathy once and then I'll head home" I could sense the tension between Chris and Mrs. Scott and I didn't want to be the reason they fought. They had just started warming up to each other and I didn't want to hinder their relationship.

"No Addie wait, I'll drop you, it's not a problem" Chris held onto my hand and Mrs. Scott's expression changed from despise to hate. 

"Chris it's fine you stay. I can drive" I insisted, I didn't want to agitate Mrs. Scott further.

"Yes, Chris she can drive by herself" she supported my decision.

Chris wasn't ready to listen to either of us "No. I'm dropping you and that's final. Mrs. Scott, I'll be back in a while" he was still holding my hand and pulled me along with him. 

We walked towards his car and he opened the door for me indicating that we wanted me to get inside. I didn't know why he was behaving this way a minute ago he was fine.

I sat inside without arguing and he did too. "Chris, what happened? Why are behaving this way suddenly?" he kept driving. He didn't look at me or reply to me and so I asked again this time being more assertive "Chris stop the car" and he immediately pulled over. Due to the sudden movement, I hit the dashboard and now even I was a bit annoyed.

"Are you alright?" he asked suddenly holding onto my hand and rubbing it gently. I withdrew my hand got down and walked towards his side opening the door for him "What happened suddenly? You were fine a while ago" I asked again hoping that he would reply this time.

He got down and stood there with his arms crossed "Are you alright Audrey?" 

Right there we were two stubborn people standing not ready to answer each other. "Are you fine?" he asked again only this time holding onto my hand close to his chest.

"I am but what happened to you all of a sudden? Why were you so rude to Mrs. Scott?"

"Because she just came into my life, she never bothered about us before and I know she had her reason but nobody can talk to my girlfriend like that" 

Hearing those words come out from his mouth made my heart flutter. 'Nobody can talk to my girlfriend like that' without saying anything further I wrapped my hands around him and I hugged him tightly. I felt a sense of safety, security, and comfort.

"Today what you did for me was just..." he continued but I didn't want to talk, I felt peaceful at that moment hugging him "Sh... Don't say anything. I don't want this night to end"

I held onto him tightly, I could feel my heartbeat faster and it was all because of him. I loved him but I couldn't say it, I just couldn't. Fear took over me, I was scared that if he left I might be shattered and I wanted to prevent feeling this way, or at least I didn't want to accept it.

What I had learned with age was to not expect anything from people, especially the ones we love but I expected things from him and the relationship we had and I never wanted to pressurize him.

I didn't want him to feel trapped, he already had many complicated relationships in his life and I didn't want to be another one of those relationships.

The sun had risen and a tear rolled down my cheek as I let go.

"Don't worry about me, Chris" I stated and sat back in the car.