In Too Deep (A Stray Kids/GOT7 AMBW Fanfic)

Chapter 8

This fucking sucks, I thought drunkenly to myself. Here I sat at some god awful bar, drowning my sorrows in soju and beer. The last sixish months have been complete shit, except New Year's and the only good thing about that day was meeting Felix. But even that was over shadowed by Jackson. I texted Felix every day, which was cool, but he couldn't make me forget that the way Jackie tended to his new girlfriend was the same way he tended to me.

It was dumb of me to think he wouldn't have a new girlfriend but honestly I didn't think he'd get one so quickly. We had been together for over a year and it took me 6 months to get under somebody new but it took him less than that to get a whole new girl. I felt so pathetic that I left my dorm to come to this shitty bar and drink. It had been a few hours since I arrived and I was very drunk.

"How dare he?!" I slurred. "He really just got a new girl like it was nothin'." I sniffled as I tried to hold back my tears. "I meant nothing to him, obviously!"

"Now if you meant nothing to me, do you think I would've tried to talk to you the other night?"

My blood ran cold at the sound of his voice. I stay stagnated in my chair, unable to turn around.

"So you're just not going to talk to me?" Jackson asked.

"Can I please get another bottle of soju? Any flavor please." The bartender obliged and handed me a green apple bottle of soju, which I graciously took. I opened the bottle and took a swig of it, forgoing the shot glass.

"Kimmie, that's not how you drink that," he scolds.

"Jackie, nobody fuckin' asked you!" I replied. "Why are you even sitting by me?? Matter a fact, how did you even find me?"

He took my bottle, poured himself a shot and drank, unfazed by the glare he was receiving from me.

"What do you want from me?!" I yelled at him, releasing my pent up anger. He grabbed me by face and me in my eyes.

"Right now? I want you to just shut the fuck up," he said sternly. "Understand?"

I shook my head 'yes'' and he let me go.

"God. Why can't you just be happy to see me?" He asked.

I scoffed at him. "That's rich. Why would I possibly be happy to see the man that broke my heart?" I took another swig from the bottle and then ordered two more. He didn't say anything after that. He just sat there quietly, quickly taking shots of the soju. Before long, he was just about as drunk as I was.

"I broke your heart?" He slurred.

"And we were doing so well," I replied sarcastically, "... why you felt the need to talk and ask me stupid ass questions you already know the answer to is beyond me." I got off my stool and started walking to the bathroom. "I moved back out here to be with you and you dumped almost immediately. What the hell do you think?"

I walked into the bathroom, immediately went into a stall and started crying. All the feelings I tried to avoid came crashing into me at once.

"Why didn't he want me?" I cried aloud.

I spent 5 minutes getting myself together after using the toilet. I walked back out the bathroom, still drunk but ready to settle the bill. I went to the bar and found Jackson to be missing. I brushed it off and called over the bartender.