In Too Deep (A Stray Kids/GOT7 AMBW Fanfic)

Chapter 19

I don't know what I expecting but I was nervous knowing I'd have to talk to Jackson. He told me his room number and I told him I'd stop by after I dropped off Chris. I texted Felix, telling him what I'd be doing and that I'd stop avoiding him so that we could have a talk too.

In the meantime, I continued to show him around the parts of New York I knew he'd never have dared to come if not for me. We went to the park and played, taking videos of him chasing me, him coming down the slide, and me on the swings as he talked to me from behind the camera. He asked me little questions to let the fans get to know me, which I answered in Korean. After all of that, me and Baby were hungry for ice cream, so we found the nearest Kennedy's Fried Chicken spot and got some.

"Are you ready?" Chris asked as he licked his cone.

"The real answer, no. But I need answers to the questions in my head," I admitted. "Why didn't he just tell me the truth, Chris? How could he have left me like that?"

"I agree that you need answers to your questions but I want you to remember that just because you need the answers doesn't mean you'll like them."

"I really hate that you're so reasonable," I frowned. "Ughhh, alright. Gaja... it's time to face the music."

Reaching the hotel took a lot less time than I was hoping for. At that point, I didn't want to have the conversation but I couldn't keep avoiding it. I parked the car and got out with Chris, walking into the hotel. We got on the elevator, quiet amongst ourselves. My mind was racing with the different scenarios of how this talk could go. I felt a hand on my shoulder, Chris giving me a small smile before stepping out of the elevator. I hadn't even realized the elevator doors had opened.

I'm scared.

He's hurt me before and he could do it again. I'm scared because I felt like I had a plan. I felt like I knew exactly how everything was going to go and then Jackson came in and destroyed any semblance of that plan. I heard the elevator ding, alerting me that I had reached the floor of my destination. Taking a deep breath, I left the elevator, walking to the room. I knocked slowly, sighing as I heard the door click.

"Come in," Jackson ushered as he opened the door. I walked in and sat down on the couch.

"Jackson I-"

"Wait," he interrupted. I closed my mouth, allowing him to start instead.

"Kimmie, I'm sorry." I blink twice, taken aback. "I really thought about what you said last night and you're right. I have just been thinking about me and my wants. I've put you in a lot of bad spots, so I want to apologize. But I hope you realize I've only been doing these things because I'm serious. Serious about us, serious about being a father to our son... serious about us being a family. I still love you and I haven't stopped. I just hope you know that," he finishes. I blink furiously to stop myself from crying, damn hormones.

I take my second deep breath of the day, "Thank you for the apology Jackson. While that was on my list of things to talk to you about, I'd also like to apologize... I'm sorry I've been such a bitch lately. I'd like to blame it all on the pregnancy but most of it has just been me. Truth is, I'm angry and I'm hurt." I look down at my hands, twiddling my thumbs in nervousness.

"You hurt me. You hurt me in ways I have yet to understand. I thought I was over it. Well not completely but in a way that made sense, ya know? I was just supposed to hate you forever and move on. But now you're back and I can't just disregard you. Looking at you fills me up with so many emotions... Why did you do me like that Jackie? How could you break up with me so cruelly? You told me you'd fight for us but when the time came, you folded like cardboard. That's not love." I couldn't stop the tears from streaming down my face. "I just want to know why."