We're just falling apart (Steve x Tony)

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Tony's POV

He left me. Steve left me. What did he tell me to do? Eat... bathe... I can't remember the list. He left yesterday. He went to his parents. I'm a bad partner. He does so much for me, I wouldn't be here without him. Maybe this is a test. Eat, bathe...what else? He's testing me to see if I can cope on my own. To see if I have become too reliant on him. I have though. I can't function without him. I didn't function well before anything happened. I feel bad for him. I have to pass his test or he'll actually leave me.

Eat, bathe... Drink? Okay what time is it?

2 am... Oh... Sleep. He said sleep. Ill set an alarm for 9 and I'll go to sleep. Yes.

Sleep is a lot harder without Steve there. What time is it now? 2:10.... What? 10 minutes? It felt like hours. What time is it now? 2:11... This is frustrating. Okay... Just Tony, just close your eyes and don't open them until the alarms gone off. Even if I don't sleep I will have still rested if I do that.

The alarm went off. Scared the sh*t out of me.  Okay what was next on the list... Eat... Drink. Coffee and breakfast. 

What do I want for breakfast? I want waffles but do we have any of them toaster ones? No we don't... Okay. Cereal then. We don't have any I like. Okay, no breakfast yet. I'll go pick up some waffles from the store when I go for my jog... Steve likes it when I exercise in the morning.

Oh Steve... I wish you were here.

I drank my coffee and then filled a water bottle and got on some joggers. Joggers are comfortable. 

The store isn't far away so I wasn't too out of breath when I got there. What time is it? 9:41. Not bad. Okay.

I picked up waffles, pancakes and cereal. I wanted to make sure I have breakfast for the next few days... What if Steve doesn't come back? Oh God. Breathing is hard. 

Someone put their hand on my shoulder. I had a panic attack. It's all just a blur. I just remember it becoming very hard to breathe as I thought about Steve. Oh it's going to be a long week.

Bathe. I need to clean. I don't want a shower or a bath to be honest. What if someone breaks in while I'm vulnerable. This is why Steve wanted to get away from me. I'm hard work. 

I chose a bath over a shower. I just need to relax now and I can fill the tub with bubbles to hide my body in it. Maybe light some candles and listen to music. 

My eyes opened. I was still in the bath. I look like a proon. Kind of funny. All the bubbles are gone. I must have fallen asleep in the tub.

What time is it? 

No that can't be right. 17:56...