The Assistant || Severus Snape x Reader ||

Chapter 16: Hard Questions

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"I've never...I don't know what being in love feels like."

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A few weeks went by after your dead end conversation with Severus, and life continued on as it had been. You went to all of your classes, practiced Quidditch, and went on being Severus' lover assistant.

You still found yourself struggling to identify your relationship with him. He kept saying that it didn't need to be anything to worry yourself over, but you didn't want to be involved with anyone who wasn't serious.

Severus had proven time and time again by showing that he was seriously committed. He treated you differently and he favored you. But you still wanted to hear him say it. You needed that verbal confirmation and reassurance.

Still, you were happier than you had ever been before.

In midst of all the chaos, you remembered that Alicia was completely in the dark with what was happening. You had barely seen her since the Halloween Dance, and she was hungry for an update. Despite your agreement to not tell anyone else, Alicia already knew and was too invested not to be told.

"Yeah, I saw you and Lupin at first and then Snape. Nice job by the way," She giggled; "So he took you back to the classroom? And then what happened?" Alicia ushered you on.

You tossed your Quidditch shoes into your practice bag along and tucked your broom alongside it. You briefly groaned at the uncomfortable bruise that was forming just below your collarbone. You had taken a nasty hit with one of the bludgers. Alicia suggested a quick, personal Quidditch practice to have some one-on-one time. You cheeky grin told her all she needed to know.

"I knew it! You guys had sex!" She screeched; "Was it any good?"

"Alicia!" You squealed.

She threw up her hands in defense.

"Oh, what? I can't ask my best friend about her sex life with her professor?" She shrilled.

You laughed gently, double checking that you had all of your Quidditch belongings packed away.

"Well, between you and me...it was so good." You admitted.

She slung her bag over her shoulder, interested to hear more. She wiped the sweat away from her forehead with her sleeve.

"Did he bring it home?" Alicia asked, referring to whether or not he had actually made you finish.

You laughed again. She was so blunt.

"He did." You grinned.

She crossed her arms triumphantly and smirked.

"Atta boy, Snape. I knew he had it in him. Have you done it since then?" Alicia beamed.

You persuaded her off of the field before anyone walked by to eavesdrop on your conversation. You continued to speak quietly.

"A couple of times. That's not all. I asked him afterwards what that meant for us." You recalled, beginning the trek back up to the castle.

Alicia gave you a rather disapproving, almost disgusted, look.

"You really asked him that? You just had to ruin the moment, didn't you?" She questioned sarcastically.

Now it was your turn to defend yourself. You scoffed.

"If you were having sex with someone who wasn't technically your boyfriend, wouldn't you want to define it too?" You asked in response.