After The War

Chapter 36 Nesta

Nesta's pov

He was going to kill me.

But at least I would die some what happy.

His hands cupped my ass and my arms were around his shoulders as we kissed against the wall.

His tounge pushing roughly against mine and his hands squeezed.

I couldn't belive the feelings rushign through me, it felt so good to be with someone who might want me for more than just my body.

Or at least is halping me work to the goal of having him love me like that, I feel like I finally realise that this is what i want.

I want a family and a home with not only this male but my sisters and to try and make the night court work, I realise as I'm kissing him, its no ones fult.

No one could have changes the out come of our lives, we are all where were ment to be in our lives and I needed to find it out for myself.

Cassians hand travels up under my shirt and cups my breast, twisting the nipple and making me pull back gasping.

But cassian sees my slight hidden wince, "Sorry I  thought you might like it, I wont do it again." he says quikly looking ashamed.

I pull back more and he lets me to the ground again, "I want to tell you?"

he nods, "Only f you want to." I manage a small smile and we sit ont he couch again.

I sigh, "He was so rough, and I guess after that when I would go out with males after drinking it didn't bother me bacuse I wasn't feeling in the way I should have about the situation, it wasn't about love-" I hadn't meant to say that.

Cassian smiled, "I understand, and I won't do anything you don't find pleasure in completely."

I grinned and jumped on him pushing him back on the couch and straddling his waist, I'd never seen him smile so much and I would do everything in my power to make it stay on his face forever.

I grabbed his cheeks and brushed my nose against his, his slight huff made me do it again, until he veered up and captured my mouth again.

He rolled us so I was under him, and I bucked my hips up to his tugging on the mating bond. He groaned into my mouth and I eat the sound, living that I made him make it.

He tugged back, still kissing me, and I understood his reaction. It felt amazing, like something what hitting a pleasure point, I never wanted it to stop but thought briefly that if we clarified the bond I might not be able to function under the pleasure of it all.

His large hands where both pulling my hair and stroking my body and I didn't know what to to do with my own, they were trying to touch everything about the amazing male infroubt of me.

Hey I'm so sorry this took so long to get out!!! I've been really busy and haven't had much time for anything🙄😅 but I hope you're all doing amazing❤️ and I was wo dwring about your thought on this story because in my mind it doesn't end so I been thinking I might stop writing it and more to one shots instead???