After The War

Chapter 26 Nesta

Nesta's pov

I woke up in a warmth I thought could melt even the coldest person, someone like me.

I had thought that if I gave myself up to my weak feelings for a male, that I would regret it and turn back on my mean cold ways.

But the safe feeling I felt right now was better than being in control.

Though now it's happened between us I can understand how I'm not out of control.

I'm sobor for the first time this year, and even though I feal like shit, I had a male here with me that wanted me no matter what.

I hadn't realised I was smiling for really in the first time in years until Cassian shifted and said, "That's the most beautiful thing I've ever woken up to."

I stared at him, before throwing my arms around his neck and pulling him closer.

I felt him huff a laugh into my hair, and he kissed the side of my head.

I tasted the tears as they fell from my eyes, I hadn't been loved like this in my whole life, and it was because of me.

I made myself unlovable, because my sisters do love me and I just don't let them,I didn't want this feeling and I didn't know why because it feels amazing.

I knew why Feyre wanted me here now, not only so I could accept her love and love her back, but so I could have the same love she had with her mate with my own.

Cassian pulled back when he smelled my tears, "Hey, what's wrong? Dammit I knew last night we went to fast. I should have stopped I should have..."

"No! That's not what it is at all. I'm so happy that you showed me how you feel, you cracked my ice, I know now why Feyre sent me."

Cassian smiled, "She loves you so much Nesta so does Elain, they just want you better, I want you better. And though they might not say it so does the rest of our family."

I was still a little unsure on the 'our family' bit. Though I guess it'll come soon.

"What do you want me to do whyle I'm here?"

"Well you could either help the other females with the many different jobs they need to do or we can start with some combat lessons?"

I frowned, "You just want to get me in those stupid leathers."

He laughed and kissed me, wrapping me in his arms again.

He pulled back after a while, "We really should get some breakfast and get going."

"Whats the time! I didn't realise it was late."

He laughed, "It not, it's only 6:30 but we still need to get up."

I nodded and got up out of the warmth Cassian offered and he seemed just as disappointed as I did.

I got dressed in the leathers he gave me, and standing there I realised I would do this.

I need to do this for Feyre, for Elain, for Cassian.

And for me.

I hope you enjoyed, hopefully I'll start the next one today or tomorrow. I hope your all well at home👍❤️