After The War

Chapter 16 Nesta

Nesta's pov

That bastard had left me here.

I didn't realise I was crying till I tasted the tears that had run into my mouth.

Why had he left me?

Because he couldn't handle hearing the truth about himself.

But maybe I had been harsh.

Being near him made me do that sometimes.

Sometimes the smell of Cassian alone could drive me mad, even if he didn't know it.

I didn't understand the draw towards him.

But it made me so angry and I hated him for making me feel like this.

I didn't deserve to be happy with anyone, I don't get a family of friends, because I didn't do anything to earn it myself.

Feyre had done so many things for this world, and now she had why she deserved.

I didn't want to deserve those things, because I don't think I can ever make up for not doing enough to deserve it.

But Cassian kept coming back to help me.

He didn't seem to want to give up on me.

And I hated him for it.

I walked twards the forest, but heard a growl from behind me.

Turning I saw Cassian standing there with a sneer on his face.

"Are you ready to apologis?"

Should I?

Yes, but it was hard.

Though I did make a promise, in my own mind, to use this punishment in my advantage and try to change.

Maybe this should be my big starting block, a new start with Cassian.

Maybe I didn't think I deserve him, but being with him could change my mind.

"I'm sorry for what I said, and it won't happen again."

Cassian's face fell into one of shock and amazement, "Maybe the mountain air really can change a person!"

I tryed my best to smile but it didn't really work.

Instead I stepped forwards and kissed Cassian right on his shocked mouth.

Almost instantly his arms came around me and held me the way that non of the males I slept with could.

He held me and kissed me with the kind of magic that change my brain wiring.

When he pulled back I did smile.

But he didn't look as happy as I thought I might have looked in that moment.

"Why did you do that!?"

He shook his head and waved his arms around, "You had no right to mess with me in that way! I can't resist you! And I can't handle you doing things like that and then turning around and staving me in the back!"

The anger in his voice shocked me into silence.

"Don't you touch me again without my permission again, you hear me? Ever again."

He left me again and I sat on the forest floor and cryed.

Hey thank you for reading, I hope that this chapter lived up to your fanfiction needs hopefully I'll have another chapter up as soon as I had this one😁👍