CHAPTER 25
Humigpit ang hawak niya sa palapulsuhan ko hanggang sa ibaba niya iyon at hawakan na ang kamay ko. We both looked at our holding hands.
"I missed holding you like this," he's smiling as he drew circles on my palm.
Now I know the feeling when they said that there are butterflies inside their stomach. I feel it now. My heartbeat is faster than usual. I'm just hoping that he won't hear it.
I was in the middle of losing myself in the moment when he let go of my hand. I looked at his face only to notice that he's kind of disappointed at what he did.
"I'm sorry... I crossed the line," he apologized.
Why is he disappointed? Is it because he held my hand or because he crossed the line? Or, maybe both?
"I shouldn't have crossed the line but, I'm not sorry for holding your hand," he added as if he heard what I was asking in my head.
Why is he pushing me? Bakit bigla na lamang ganito? Gusto ko ito... noon. Gusto kong pareho kami ng nararamdaman. Na kaya naming iparamdam sa isa't isa ang mga nakababaliw na bagay. Mga emosyon na mahirap labanan. At ang pagmamahal na masarap sa pakiramdam ngunit pinagbabawal.
I kept staring at him. We stared at each other's eyes. Walang nangahas na magsalita. Ngunit ang mga titig namin ay napakarami nang pinapahayag. Kailangan na lamang naming itong sabihin upang makumpirma.
When I first met him again, I didn't know that I would end up having a feeling for him. I didn't know that I'd end up loving him. He was just a total stranger, a stranger who took my spot. I hated him. No, I actually envied him just because of a shallow reason. I was unreasonable and mean but, he pursued me. He wanted us to become friends, so he strived for it.
Iniwasan ko siya. Lahat na ata ay ginawa ko 'wag lang magkrus ang mga landas namin. Ngunit heto pa rin kami ngayon. Napakarami na ang nangyari. Mga problemang dumaan. I don't know if I can count our memories together as a child because I don't remember them. All I know is that, at this very moment, I know that this night won't end without me confessing my real feelings for him.
I'll confess, right now. I don't want to keep it anymore. He started this confession thingy so, I should be the one who'd end it.
Again, I took a deep breath. Ito na ang oras ng pagpapakatotoo. It's my time now and, I wouldn't let it pass without doing something for myself.
"I... I'm feeling something for you too," I tried my best not to stutter.
"What feelings?" he asked, confused but, I know that he has an idea.
Tinitigan ko siya diretso sa mga mata. Gusto kong makita niya kung gaano ako ka-seryoso ngayon. Na hindi ako gumagawa lamang ng kwento at hindi ako nagsisinungaling.
"I like you..." I uttered as I stared deeply into his eyes. And, once again, I am lost in it. "But, there are lots of consequences," I looked away so, I can continue. "I like you, too, but, we can't be together."
"I can wait."
I shook my head. I don't want to be reckless. Naomi's hurt and it would hurt her more once she found us out.
"Naomi's our friend. I don't want to cause her another pang of pain. Friends are more important than this."
His gaze didn't leave mine but, it softens. I can see it clearly. He doesn't want to hurt her more. Hindi pa siguro sila muling nagkakausap matapos ang araw na iyon. I don't want to ask him about that because I know, it would hurt him, too.
"Kaya kong maghintay hanggang sa maayos na ang lahat. Hanggang sa pwede na," ang naging sagot nito.
I can't help but adore him more. He already waited for more than a decade now. But, he's still willing to wait for another decade.
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