Torn between Love and Hate

Forty

Jiyong lifted Dara from the tub and placed her inside the shower stall. He turned on the water adjusted the temperature. While Dara did not know what to do for she's completely naked as well as very nervous and shy.
"Go and take a shower babe. I'll be right outside if you need me." Dara then nodded.

As Dara was washing, she felt pain in between her thighs as if she did one thousand squats. She is so sore that it's not even funny. She tolerated the pain until she is done. When she came out of the bathroom Jiyong has already prepared their lunch on the table out on the balcony. She smiled upon seeing this and grateful to him for bringing the food up here because she doesn't think that she can make it up and down the stairs. Jiyong called her from the balcony and she slowly walks trying not to show how difficult it is for her to walk. But it didn't go unnoticed to Jiyong as he immediately came by her side to help her. She saw concern and something else in his eyes but he hid it right away. That was the second time she saw that but, it would disappear right away.

When Jiyong saw how difficult for her to walk around he felt so bad. "Babe I'm so sorry. Was I too rough with you last night? I should have controlled myself from taking you again in the middle of the night." he said in a whisper.

Dara stopped walking and turned around to face him. She covered both sides of his face and smiled at him and ready to tease him. "Hey, it is not your fault. I'm just plain irresistible that's all."

Jiyong still feeling bad but gave her a tight lip smile. "How could you still be joking when you know for a fact that I was the one who causes you to be in pain."

"I'm fine Ji. I am. I am just out of shape." she made another joke again.

Jiyong chuckled at her playful side that he did not know existed. "She's so easy to talk to. There is no trace of arrogance in her body. On top of that, he can be his true self in front of her." he thought to himself. His phone buzzed again. He pretended to ignore it but it keeps buzzing.

Dara looked at him and with a smile she said. "Go ahead and answer it, it must be important."

Jiyong hesitated for a while but finally excused himself to answer the call. He went out of his room to his office. "Hello."

"Sweetie?! Finally, I've called you since this morning. Why didn't you pick up?"

"Sorry, I have been busy. Why? What is going on?" he blankly answered.

"Minzy is inviting us to go clubbing tonight and I told her that we will go. So, can you pick me up at eight?"

Jiyong furrowed his brows as he annoyingly said. "Wait! How can you decide that without asking me first?"

Yu-Na was a bit stunned at how Jiyong raised his voice at her. "But you always didn't mind every time I decide for the both of us. So what is the difference now?"

Jiyong brushed his hand to his hair and said. "Okay, fine. But we won't stay long because I have an important meeting tomorrow."

Yu-Na felt victory is on her side always as she excitedly says, "Great! Don't forget to pick me up at eight. I love you."

Jiyong is still annoyed but cannot do anything about it. "I love you too." then hung up the phone. He stayed in his office for who knows how long. He's aware that he needs to talk to Yu-Na about their relationship. "This might be a chance to do so." he thought to himself. Remembering his wife still waiting for him upstairs, he immediately returns.

While Jiyong is downstairs, Dara recalled everything that happened as she looked out of their garden. She knows that they have crossed the line of their so-called temporary marriage. In short, they consummated their marriage. She is still not certain as to what their relationship will become. and she's a bit fearful. She decided that since she did allow it to happen she still need to be prepared for anything. She will need to talk to Donghae when given a chance.

Jiyong went back to his room and watch his wife in silence. At this time he is very confused about everything. He knows that he has fallen in love with his wife. But at the same time, he still loves his girlfriend Yu-Na. He doesn't want to hurt either one of them. But he knows that he will end up hurting one of them.

Just then Dara turned her head to look for Jiyong and they stared at each other for a while. Jiyong smiled at her as he walked towards her, retreating his complicated feelings on the side for now.

"Everything okay?" Dara asked.

Jiyong gave her a tight lip smile and nodded his head. He finds he couldn't talk without lying.

"Let's eat then," she insinuated as they both ate in silence. Dara notice that Jiyong seems to be in deep thought. She then recalled that he is still in a relationship with someone else and so...

"Listen." Both of them said at the same time as they were both stunned.

"Sorry. You go first." Jiyong offered.

Dara nervously cleared her throat before speaking. "Uhmm...I know that we have crossed the line when we're supposed to be filing for divorce in less than two months. I am also well aware that you are indeed in a long-term relationship with someone and now so am I." she paused. "Listen. We are both matured adults. I am not blaming you at all, therefore please don't think about it, too much and we both should just move on from this." And if her husband thought that this was easy for her to say when she had already fallen for him, then he's mistaken. Because this is reaping her heart apart to a million pieces.

Jiyong was very unhappy and angry upon hearing all this from his wife. "Is this what you want to happen?" he asked in an icy tone of voice without looking at her, as he paused awhile. Then he raised his head up and looked her in the eye. "What happens...if I told you that I have fallen deeply in love with you? That I want a real marriage with you this time."