Weak (skins uk)

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(Play the song towards the end lol)

I woke up to my phone ringing. It was pretty early and cook was still asleep. "Hello," I whispered. "Hey it's Freddie, can you meet me at my flat?" "Sure..," I hung up the phone and kissed cook on the forehead. "Be right back." I pulled on one of cook's sweaters and my skirt leaving out the door. As I arrived at Freddie's house I saw his tall figure standing outside. "What's up?" I asked a bit confused to why he called me. "I'm not sure. I just feel weird," he said throwing his head back against the wall. "Me too. Cook had to cuddle me in order for me to fall asleep," I chuckled. Freddie laughed with me, "how is he?" "Good. He's been a huge support." Freddie nods and then starts walking away from his house and past me. "Where you going?" "We should take a walk and clear our heads," Freddie said softly. I followed him as he took out a spliff for us. I lit it and held it in between my fingers as we slowed walked down streets. "Freddie what do we do?" "I'm not sure. But we'll all be alright okay?" I inhale and exhale feeling warmer, "how the fuck do you know that for sure?" "Because I love her more than anything in this world. I won't let anyone or anything her hurt. I can't loose her again," Freddie said tearing up a bit. I looked at him with sympathy and handed him the joint. I was silent for a moment trying to make myself feel better. "Hey how about we go over to some grass and have a dance party!" "A dance party?" Freddie said furrowing his eyebrow. "Yes and I'll text Emily to come so we don't worry for just a while," I say texting em the deets. "Okay," Freddie smiled. We then started running towards Brandon hill and sat on the grass. Emily came faster than we expected. "Hey," she said giving me a huge tight hug. "How'd you get here so fast?" Freddie asked. "I was nearby," she said sitting down next to me. "Ems I've missed you so much. We haven't had the chance to hang out with all this drama," I sighed. "Yeah I know. But hey I'm here now. Pass the spliff," she said stealing it from Freddie. I then played cant get you out of my head  on my phone and we started dancing to it. Me and Freddie were teaching Emily the choreo we had learned from Karen a while back. "Okay I think I got it," Emily says finishing the moves off. "Okay let's do it together. Ready?" I say posing in the starting position. We then began to do the dance in perfect synchronicity. "CANT GET YOU OUT OF MY HEAD!" I said jumping around as we heard the song for the third time. We then all started jumping around on the soft grass. My phone began to ring and cook was calling. "Hey babe you finally up?" "Yeah..where'd you go? I was gonna make us breakfast or something," he said his voice a bit more raspy. "Oh sorry I'm with Freddie and Emily. Trying to you know.. free our minds," I say as I look over to freddie and Emily who are laughing and dancing still. "Oh okay..come back really soon though,"he said. "Okay I'll be back in 10, love you." As I turned back to Emily and Freddie they were making fun of me and cook. "Oh shut up you wankers," I chuckled pushing them.

Soon after we had a bit of fun Freddie's phone was now ringing. He picked it up not recognizing the number, "hello?" I heard mumbles on the other side of the phone but didn't make out who it was exactly. "Ok." Freddie's face turned more serious. "Is everything alright?" Emily asked. "Yeah. Lana we have to go," Freddie said not making eye contact. "Go where?" I asked confused. "John foster wants to speak to us about effy," he responded and then walked away. My heart froze a bit not sure why. "Ok..ems I'll see you later yeah?" I say giving her a quick hug then catching up to freddie. Soon we arrived at the guys house and we walked in. He answered the door smiling, "welcome." He seated us on some chairs and sat down across from us. "What the fuck do you want," I said angrily. "I just want to talk. Elizabeth have expressed dissatisfaction with my methods which is perfectly understandable. I am something of a maverick," he said his blue eyes sulking into me and Freddie. "You never helped her at all. She's worse then she ever was now," Freddie said firmly. "Anyway. I'm hoping to keep working with her regardless. Theirs  some things I haven't tried," he said evily. "Are you death? Listen, WE DONT WANT YOU," I said fed up. "JUST STAY THE FUCK AWAY," Freddie added getting up to leave. John stood up with him which made me a bit nervous, "indulge in me a bit longer. I admit I was arrogant, stupid, I made mistakes. I got too close, I feel terrible. I care too much," he said trying to get sympathy. Freddie clenches his jaw like he always did when he was angry, "stay away from her." He now walks away and I follow him scolding John with my eyes as well. As we walk up the stairs John continued to talk. As we reached the top of the stairs the door was locked and Freddie couldn't get it open. "Freddie open the fucking door," I said scared to shit as John was talking nonsense. "It won't open," he said tugging at it. John then faced us from the bottom of the stairs , "I can't let you have her I'm afraid, she really does love you guys." "Ok cmon open the door," Freddie said annoyed. I watched as John t had his hand behind his back and I pieced it all together in a matter of seconds. He was gonna try to kill us to keep effy. I started shaking and took my phone out my back pocket redialing my last call..cook. It vibrated so I knew it picked up that way he heard everything. "John let us go please," I said my voice and leg trembling. He then began to walk up the stairs and pulled a gun from behind his back pointing it at us. Freddie's face turned in shocked and my heart fell into my stomach. "What the fuck are you doing,"Freddie said his voice trembling too.  "If you do this you're going to be found. Please just let us go," I said tears falling down my face. Freddie grabbed my hand in support. We looked at eachother knowing this would be our last moments. Freddie also had his phone behind him, with the police I'm guessing. "I'm sorry. I can't let you have her," John said firing the gun into my leg. I winced in pain as I felt heat arise. I fell down to the floor as I looked at the blood gushing out. Another shot fired and Freddie fell down too. Then I saw cook come  behind John before he could fire another shot. Cook got him to the ground and was punching him aggressively which knocked the gun out of his hand. Once John was down enough Cook ran to me and put his hand over my wound. He was breathing heavily and crying so much which I rarely saw. "No. No. No. You're gonna be alright. I won't loose you," he said holding me. "Cook,I love...," I said barely able to speak. He then took off his shirt and split it in half tying it around my leg and then doing the same for Freddie. Once he did that John t had gotten up. I had watched him grab the gun again and scared for cooks life I shoot up. "NO," cook said as John aimed at me. He got in front of me just as the gun was fired leaving Cook to fall to the ground. At the same time someone had shot John foster from behind which I didn't pay attention to because I ran to cook. I shook him trying to wake him up and I covered his shot with my hand. "NO COOK NO. PLEASE DONT NO," I screamed and cried as the police pulled me away to get me to a hospital. In their arms I kicked and screamed like a toddler not wanting to be away from cook. "LET ME GO. I HAVE TO MAKE SURE HES OKAY. NO STOP. I LOVE HIM," I said as they put me in a ambulance. My throat began to hurt and I started to feel dizzy. My sight blurred and I passed out.

When I woke up I felt a pain in my leg and bright lights hit my eyes. I looked to my side and saw effy, my mom and Tony. "Hey..you're awake," effy said her face lighting up. Her eyes were really red and it looked like she had gotten no sleep. She started crying again as she looked at me. "Tony?" I said seeing Tony looking the same way. "Hey little sis," he said grabbing my hand. My mom was on the other side sleep. The events had came back to me just now and I immediately got worried. "Where's cook? And Freddie?" I said. Effys eyes widened, "lana..." "what? Where is he?" I said as Tony frowned. I realized what they wanted to say but I didn't believe it. I jumped out my hospital bed and ran as effy called for me. I ran down the rooms looking for cooks. I started asking everyone where he is and I felt like I couldn't breathe. My leg was hurting as I ran but I didn't care because I needed to find him now. The longer it took to find him the more and more I cried. Then I saw Freddie down the hallway and ran to him. Once he turned to me his eyes were red as well and he was dressed in a hospital gown. "Where cook?" I asked. Freddie just looked at me then started crying hard. I turned to the room he came out of and saw a few doctors with cook on the bed. From here everything felt like slow motion as I ran to the bed. Cooks eyes were closed and then doctors were trying to hold me back as they unplugged him. My chest felt like it caved in as what I was afraid of was happening right in from of my eyes. I pushed out of the doctors arms tears running down my cheek and I grabbed cooks hand which was a bit cold. "NO NO NO. WAKE UP. WAKE UP." I began to shake him and Freddie pulled me away as I cried and screamed so loudly. As the bed was taken out of the room I fell to the floor. Effy came in holding me tight as ever as I cried and screamed my guts out. Cook was gone.

I had realized that he was always there to protect me, every single fucking time. He always was there just in time to save my life because he loved me more than anything and this time it costed him his own.

An: JESUS CHRIST I HAD A HARD TIME WRITING THAT. This made me cry because wow. Do you guys see why I've been avoiding writing this 😖. (Hi guys I've been reading comments and I feel so bad lol but don't worry I'm gonna make another fan fic with Freddie only bc I love him better no offense to cook but 🚶🏼‍♂️)

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