Weak (skins uk)

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The next day at college was a bit awkward. Emily and Naomi weren't talking and I knew cook would make a grand entrance. I found out he had gotten on probation for abuse. I see Jj and Freddie trying to cheer up pandora. Then effy walked in and sat with Freddie. I really tried not to get jealous this time. I remembered what Emily said and I just turned away. Then cook walked in, "well howda-fucking dooty," cook says looking at everyone. Effy and me say hi to him and he says hi back. I could tell he was putting on a mask in front of everyone. I didn't know why he did that, it doesn't matter if you're tough of not...I already knew that but he didn't need to act like an asshole to get respect. It's quite actually the opposite. "I was just walking by really to see how deep everyone was rolling..see who's up for a party on the poke ." "Jj, panda?" He asks. "No thanks," jj says quickly and pandora shakes her head no. "No? Why?" He says looking at him. "Just don't want too," jj responds. "Naomio? What about you..bring your lady well make it a threesome," he says obnoxiously. "What's up with you two?" He asks but they just stay silent. "Black guy?" The guy with the Afro shakes his head no. "Anyone?" He asks. Freddie and effy stand up walking over and I get up with them, "we'll come." "Nah, your alright," cook says chuckling a bit. "What happened to you?" Cook asks jj referring to his bruises. "Don't you remember?" Jj says shocked. "No..remember what? Who fucked ya?" Cook says confused. I couldn't tell if he was pretending to know or not. Then professor blood walks in, "ahh finally, the famous Mr.cook." "Hi David blood we have met before. Now we should pow wow." "Huh?" Cook says furrowing his brow. "I can see that this college has failed you Mr.cook and I'm deeply sorry, so unfortunately since you've been implicated..uh you have been automatically expelled," Professor blood said. Oh god more shit to put him through. "And I'm going to  have to ask you to Scott off," he contuined. "Or what?" Cook says. I look at cook and shake my head no but he did it anyway. "Or Jonathan here will escort you with extreme prejudice," he replied. Cook then laughs a bit, "Jonathan can kiss my ass..unless he's tired from licking yours that is. Jonathan?" Professor blood laughs and I knew something was about to go down knowing cook. "Please just stop talking cook," I whisper. "Yes that is tremendously amusing nevertheless, you are going to have to abrogate and egress from the premise," he says moving out the way and the body guard starts walking towards cook. "Don't touch me," cook scoffs. The body guard puts cook in a arm lock and we all jump slightly in shock. Then professor blood pulls out a can from his pocket and sprays it in cooks eyes. We all jump closer in defense. "What the fuck are you doing," I yell but they ignore me taking cook out of the school. "Luckily it's all over now and we can go back to normal. Goodmorning," he says walking out. "He can't bloody do that," effy says. "Oh fucking hell," I add as they take cook out. "Cook are you alright," Freddie asks. "FUCK OFF MAN,"cook yells. My heart started beating I didn't like this I had to get out of here.

A few days later effy came in my room to tell me something. "I went to see cook today.." she said sitting on my bed. "And?" I ask wondering what she was going to tell him. "I told him that he's brave, that he's better than what they think he is, and that..I love Freddie." As she said that I took a deep breath. I began to feel a lot less sad about effy and Freddie being together but that didn't stop me from loving him...I don't know If I could ever stop loving him.  "I think it's about time he understood what you guys have," I say laughing a bit. Effy smiles, "you understand right?" "Yeah of course," I nod. "Effy no matter how much we fight I'll always love you. Sometimes I don't fully understand you but I know you'd never do anything purposely to hurt the people you love. I think you're an amazing sister," I say to her. She begins to tear up, "Lana..I'm not an amazing sister I did horrible things to you and of course I didn't mean to but.." "exactly..you didn't mean to, we all make mistakes and crazy things because of love. But I just think we have to remember the love that isn't romantic like me and Emily or me and you," I grabbed her hand and clutched hard. I needed her to feel better. She didn't respond but tears fell down her eyes almost too fast like they had be waiting there. "I told cook we should all hang out after college..just to get used to you know being  around eachother and not going crazy. I think it's all gonna be alright L," effy says grabbing my hand again then leaving my room. I was actually agreeing with that idea. I think I could get over them if we all hung out together nothing really much couple like but us together as one. Me, cook, effy, Freddie, Pandora and Emily. I'd call it the broken hearts club. But instead of being broken hearted we put all our pieces together and just be.

When I went to college that day I had forgotten my makeup but I was wearing a longer black dress with some cobweb stockings for Halloween day. Afterschool we all went to me and effy's house. We had been eating dinner first but me and Emily had already been full so we sat on the couch while the others ate. "Ems..I think I want to hug cook.." I whipser. "What why?" She asked looking at me. "I just want to tell him someone loves him ya know..that somebody cares. And he looks like he needs it," I laugh a bit. I was nervously coming to terms with my feelings towards cook, I started to realize I didn't hate him at all.  "Well that makes sense. So why don't you hug him then?"Emily replies nudging me. "Because..how do you hug cook? When do you hug cook?" Emily laughs at me and we both look at the others having a laugh at the table. For one night we all weren't thinking about who loved who or anything, we just were having fun. After they ate dinner I decided I would go try. I went in the kitchen where cook was, "hey cookie." "Hey Lana what's up?" He asks. I look at him and then just go in for a hug. He hugs me back after a while of shock, "what this for?" He asks. "Just embrace it you may never get it again," I say lying to myself and him. It felt so good in his arms and I felt his heart beating faster. Later We all sat around the table. I was sitting on the table though. "Ugh you know i really miss Chris," I say sighing. "Me too," Effy says. "Who the fuck is Chris?"cook asks. "The best person ever next to Jal," I say laying my back on the table. "I'm a bit tired and it's late Im gonna lay up in your room L," pandora says leaving before I get to respond. After pandora leaves I contuined to lay back on the table but once I got up I noticed cook was looking at me. It was this look I think I've seen him give effy. It was..the look. I got nervous and then looked away fastly. What was happening... I pushed the tingles away that I was getting. I lied back on the table again trying to avoid eye contact with cook but then my dress flies up revealing my bra and stockings. I immediately jump up putting it down, Everyone just laughs casually not thinking anything of it so I laugh too. Then I looked at cook and he was giving me that look again but this time more hungrier. Then I gave him the look back for some reason. Good thing nobody was paying attention because they were either zoned out or having their own conversation. Cook tried to go towards me about to start something but I pushed him away and said no even though I wanted him to. But people were around and I didn't think it was right..

A few hours Later everyone had went upstairs or fell asleep. Cook took that as a signal to try again and I let him. He began kissing my inner thigh leaving a soft tingly amazing feeling. How did he know that was my weakness? Nobody knew that. I leaned back a bit and he proceeds to take my underwear off. He began to get to the pot of gold. The feeling he left there made me tingle and it felt so damn good. I moaned a bit trying to keep quiet. He made me feel weakened and I never felt like this before, I secretly wanted more and it's like cook read my mind. He moved up to my lips and we kissed passionately. I couldn't help but go further and further. He left kisses on my neck and then we started actually doing the deed, and I loved it. After we were finished we looked at each other. "Woah..cook I.."  I didn't even know what to say. We just looked into eachothers eyes for a bit. He pulled me off the table and onto his lap, my legs wrapping around him and the chair. After we had surfed and turfed we both didn't see that coming. Abruptly it was there and then we knew it has always been there, waiting. We hadn't seen the moment but the moment saw us from a long way. "I've always thought you were cool L, but I was too focused on everything else to see everything about you that I.." cook says but I cut him off with another kiss. Suddenly we fell back on the chair making a loud thump. We both widened our eyes then laughed. "Now I finally know what that knot in my stomach was," I say looking at him. "We Were just too idiots too stuck up on being jealous," cook says shaking his head in realization. We both laughed and got up from the floor picking up the chair with us. Then we hearing someone coming downstairs and we shift so we look normal and not like we had just shagged. Freddie comes in the dining room looking confused, "what are you guys still doing up and out here?" "Uh..um Emily and panda took up my bed so I slept out here with cook.." "slept with cook how exactly?" "No not like that Um we slept in different places and I just woke up Uh.." I fumble out of my mouth. "What was that loud bang?" Freddie asks. "Oh the chair fell from me leaning back on it, no biggie," cook says. "Well I'm late I better get home before my alarm goes off and I have to wait till next morning.." cook says grabbing his stuff and waving at us. As cook waved goodbye I got all tingly again. Freddie just looked at me weirdly. "what?" I said getting up to get in the shower.