Weak (skins uk)

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"Lana? What are you doing in Freddie's bed?" Effy said confused. "Oh um..JJ gave me some pills of his and Freddie let me sleep in his bed because I was fucked but I'm good now..." I was practically shaking and Freddie was just staying still so effy won't know he's there. "Oh I um came to see Freddie..where is he?" "Not sure I don't really remember much from when I was put in bed.." Freddie chuckles a bit and I hit him with my leg pretending it was me who made that noise. "We're you? Is someone else here I heard moaning.." she asks. "No I was just masterbating.." I say embarrassed. "Oh well I leave you to it I'm gonna go find Freddie." She leaves and closes the door behind her. We wait till we hear her walk down the stairs then I pull the blanket off and Freddie just looks at me and laughs so hard. "Smooth babe," he says getting up and putting his clothes on. "Hurry up and go to the shed so you can talk to her," I say waving him away. I then put on my clothes and get ready to leave. I wonder what effy was coming to tell him.

The gang hasn't hung out as a group in a minute so Katie invited us all to go camping except cook. cook was definitely gonna be upset when he finds out he wasn't invited. Freddie told me he told effy about us and she just said oh ok. I knew she wasn't happy with it but she wanted to be with cook still so? Effy was driving us there. I sat in the front with effy. We got lost so we stopped at the gas station. Katie got out to get something from the store. Freddie went and ask these weird looking guys how to get to gobblers end. He got directions and then the weird shit started, "you kids want to see something?" The guy ask. Freddie nods unsurely. The guy goes to his car and pulls out a massive gun. We all just get shocked. As he aims the gun at something Katie runs out the store and screams for someone's help. The guy missed the target. He then walks up to Katie, "you just made me miss, I've never missed before." Katie looks at him scared. Freddie grabs Katie, "alright thats enough let's go." We all get in the car. "don't forget to BEWARE THE MOON," the weird guys say as we speed off. Then pandora looks back and starts to breath heavily. "What's wrong panda?" I ask. "OH MY GOD THEIR BEHIND US!" Emily said. We all start to freak out as they drive crazy behind us and stick the gun out as we're driving. I get scared since effy is the closest. "EFFY PULL OVER, STOP THE CAR," Freddie yells. She stops the car abruptly and they go back. We all take deep breaths as they leave. " I think we should go home,"pandora says scared to shit. "Well they're gone now, we're safe," Freddie says. "As long as we 'beware the moon'..obviously." as Freddie says that I look at him in the mirror and laugh, he laughs with me and Katie starts yapping about how it's not funny. "That's not fucking funny," Katie says. "It's very funny to me actually," I say rolling my eyes. "Alright babes chill out,"Freddie says and reaches over the seat to kiss me. Soon effy stops laughing and I kind of felt bad. "Cmon.. not far now," effy said starting the car again.

Soon we were at the place and setting up. Effy has ran of somewhere as usual. I sat by the tree with pandora, she looked sad. "You alright panda?" I asked. "Everything's great..I love Thomas he loves me everythings tickety flippin boo," she says flashing me a fake smile. effy came at sat down and opened her jacket. "What are those?" Panda asks. "SHROOMS COOL," I say examining them. Katie walks over to us, "what are you doing?" "Found some shrooms..want some?"effy says smirking. "No. How do you know they're not poisonous? I don't want you ruining my party by like vomiting blood. AND THIS ISN'T SUPPOSED TO BE THAT KIND OF PARTY EFF, just drinks and sausages no mushrooms." I take a mushroom and eat it tasting the bitterness. I then wash it down with my beer. "Woah..mushrooms?" Freddie says and comes over putting his arm over me. "Oo give me some," he says grabbing one. "FREDDIE?!" Katie says annoyed. "Did I hear mushrooms?" Emily says walking over with Naomi. "Emily..don't you fucking dare," Katie says but Emily pushes her eyebrow up telling Katie 'I'm gonna do it anyway'. She comes and sits down in our circle. Thomas comes over too. Soon we're all trippy and playing with sparks. Freddie puts a joint up to my lips then kisses me. We both blow out the smoke as our kiss released. I felt so alive and I could feel the blood pumping through my veins. I looked around and saw so many colors and things that were interesting to me. I danced to the music move my hips around. Effy came to me and we laughed while dancing together. We both fell on the floor and touched the leaves amazed. I felt connected to the world like beams of light were connecting me to the ground. I could really feel. Emily handed me a spark and I waved it around watching the flame light the air. I felt the heat and sparks popping me but I loved the feeling. Effy then went over the where I stuff was at, "Hey who moved our stuff?"

Katie walks over confussed, "okay funny joke now put our stuff back." I look to see our stuff is missing then we all her a gun shot. I jump and grab on to effy. Freddie pulls us over to him. Then we hear another gun shot. "Turn the music off ," Freddie says. We all tremble coming slightly down from our high. I was holding effy's hand while Freddie was pulling me close. "JJ put out the fire,"Emily says. He puts out the fire and it goes dark and silent. Then we hear shuffling and running. I squeeze effy's hand harder and move closer to her. I was so scared. We were all breathing heavily and looking around. Suddenly someone flashes a light on us and we get even more scared and worried they found us. Then they start screaming and going towards us. We all jump back and get scared. Then the person takes of their mask and we realize it's cook. We all let out a breath. Effy lays down on the floor scared to shit. I rub her face making sure she was okay. "You fucking prick," Freddie says. "I fucking should kill you." I just stare at cook, "you made us have a panic attack you little shit." "It wasn't me there was psychos in the woods with guns," he replied. "You bloody scared us you stupid fucking tosser," Emily scoffs. Effy grabs my hand. "I was just trying to freak you out." "why?" Freddie says annoyed with him. "Because I thought it'd be funny and it totally was," he says beginning to mock us. He laughs and tries to get but Katie puts her foot down on his, "what the fuck are you doing here." "You know me I smell a shindig I'm here," cook replies. "Uh..yeah well you weren't invited so you can just fuck off," Katie scoffs. "Aww..but we're having such a nice time." Then he points at Katie's tits, "your tits look fucking mint from this angle by the way." Freddie grabs him by the shirt like he did back at his house, "WHAT IS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM?" "What do you want my fucking blood? Cause you fucking taken everything else, your taking fucking JJ and now your snicking her from me as well," cook says referring to effy. Freddie looks over at effy confused and she just stands there. "She hasn't told you has she? Haha fuck me, I'm so glad I didn't miss this." He says looking to effy. I let go of her hand looking at her, "What?" "Effy doesn't want me anymore, do you princess?" Cook asks. Then effy stares with a scared look on her face, "no.."
"But Freddie is with me now so.." I say going over to him but he is staring at effy. "Freds?" As he is caught up in effy's eyes my heart sinks. I realize what's happening. "..right," Freddie says still looking at her. I look between them and then inhale, "I'm gonna take a walk." "Lana..wait" I walk off really fast feeling queasy. "L please.." effy says. Everything gets faded as I walk away and effy chases after me. "Leave me alone.." I say tears falling down my eyes. "Lana.." "no you always fuck things up don't you? You wait till I'm locked on to come right in when you want to. It isn't about you all the time effy, I'm not gonna fucking accommodate to when you want to be with Freddie or cook. So piss off alright?" I say running off. I couldn't stop crying, I felt like shit and of course everyone still is choosing effy over me. My mom doesn't even ask how I'm doing anymore. Nobody fucking cares this isn't worth it. I take out a blade I had stored in my favorite sweater which I wore on this trip. I put it up to my skin digging it in then I hear noise and I jump. "Who's there?" The sounds stops and nobody answer so I keep going. Then I feel a hand grab my arm and dropping the blade on the floor. "No no I need that," I say getting on the ground looking for it. "What the fuck are you doing?" Cook says holding me back. "What does it look like cook?" I say crying because I can't find the blade. I started breathing heavily and holding my head. "Calm down Lana calm down" he says holding me. "NO NO I NEED TO CUT PLEASE..please," I say starting to cry. He holds me in his arms and strokes my hair, "shh it's gonna be okay, you're gonna be okay." Everything started to fade again and I just felt his stroke on my hair. After I calmed down he wiped my tears, "it's not worth it to do that." I frown I couldn't believe out of all people cook was helping me. "Cook you need to get me out of here," I say looking into his eyes. He then moved my sleeve down to reveal my other scars, "Lana why did you do this to yourself?" "Because no one fucking cares, everyone is hung up on my sister and just uses me when she's not there as a second choice and I'm tired.." "I feel you mate, and I'm sorry I took part I just love her ya know?" "Yeah it's fine everybody loves her," I say. Cook has surprisingly calmed me as he usually makes me angry. He picked me up and took me to his car where he took me to his flat. He gives me a bandage for my cut and I smiled at him, "you're way nicer than people think aren't you?" "Fuck you," he says laughing. Soon I fell asleep in cooks bed trying not to think of the events of tonight and just letting myself be.