Weak (skins uk)

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Me and Freddie sat beside effy's bed and she was still sleeping. Freddie was really shaken up and worried. Then effy opened her eyes and we both smiled. Effy looked around with a scared look. "Eff you alright?" Freddie asks sitting up a bit. "I'm back where I was," effy said staring at the ceiling. "Your back in the hospital," I say grabbing her hand. "No...in here. I could hear the voices again,"she said pointing to her head. I knew what she meant because I've been through it too. The voices in my head telling me I'm not strong enough. "I'm here," Freddie said firmly. "I didn't mean what I said to you..I'm so stupid," she said tearing up. "Shh..it's alright, we're together..ok we'll be together," Freddie said grasping her hand. I smiled at them both feeling their connection and it reminded me of that time cook was there. He was always there just like Freddie was for effy..and that's how it was supposed to be. Then Dr.foster walked in all smiley, "how are we doing?" "No..no I don't want him," effy said nervously. Me and Freddie eyed him angrily, "you fucking bastard. It was you who did this." "Your John foster?" Freddie stood up angrily. "And you must be Freddie," he smiled evily. "You need to leave." "She's my patient." "I want someone else. Your done with her..Fuck off," Freddie said clenching his jaw angrily. Dr.foster clicked his pen and left out the room. I rolled my eyes tired of seeing him. Effy looked over to freddie with complete sympathy, "you deserve better." "Eff.." "it's okay just go to sleep," Freddie says trying to stay strong for her. "I love you, I love you, I love you," effy whispered to freddie and me as she fell asleep. Me and Freddie both started crying because we loved her.

After a while freddie fell asleep holding her hand. I could tell he'd never let her go. I smiled as I watched them feeling everything was safe and sound. I decided I should go see cook so I texted him to meet me on Brandon hill. I walked up to the bench and saw him smoking a cigarette. "Hey," I said sitting next to him. Cook pulled me in closer by my waist and kept his hand there making me feel all tingly. "Is everything alright with her? Freddie too?" He asked me. "Yeah..you know freddie would never let anything happen to her and neither would I." I stared off into the blue sky trying to run away from my thoughts. Although everything was fine I still was really scared. "You alright then?" Cook asks turning to me. I didn't answer because that question could trigger everything. Cook turned my head to face him with one finger and looked in my eyes. Our eye contact made me feel loved and more vulnerable than ever. So I let a tear fall..and then a few more. "Hey hey it's alright princess,"cook said pulling me into a hug. "I love you more than anything in this cruel world you know. That's rare," he says stroking my hair. I get up from his arms and kiss him passionately, "Thank you cook." "For what?" He said blushing. "For everything." He placed his arm around my shoulder and I layed my head on him. "Everything's going to be alright now okay?" I nod my head trying to convince myself that's true. Soon me and cook go back to Naomi's. "Come to my room I wanna show you something," cook says leading me up the stairs. As we walked into his room he showed me a picture of me he had framed. "Tada," he said with his huge smile. I laughed and admired myself on his wall, "wow you love me don't you." "Uh huh," cook says grabbing my waist. After he let go he just stared at me giving me the look. "Cook.." "what?" "What is to that you want," I say rolling my eyes playfully. Cook got closer to me basically pinning me against the wall, "you know what I want." I looked down at him not being able to resist and then we start kissing aggressively. We fumbled onto the bed and he started taking off my dress while I took off his shirt. Cook pulled down his pants and slipped his cock in my opening leaving a beautiful sensation. He rolled his eyes back as he began to go in and out of me and caused me to grab onto the pillow behind me. "Fuck..." he said as he began to kiss me again. Cook then went down to my neck and tits leaving red marks. I threw my head back in pleasure and grabbed onto his back as he went faster and more aggressively. I let out a loud moan as he finished. We both caught our breaths and layed on the bed. I started laughing for no reason at all so cook then started tickling me which caused me to laugh even more. "I never been so in love," cook says seriously. "Me either..look at us being vulnerable," I say taking a hair from my face. Cook just laughs and then kisses me. Everytime we touch or kiss I'm just filled with happiness and I forgot all about everything. "You should sleep here tonight," cook says getting cozy in the covers and spooning me. As I layed there in the silence I was left with my thoughts. My anxiety went off the charts and I started breathing heavily. "You alright babe?" Cook said leaning up. "No..I'm still worried,"I say trying to calm myself down. "Hey look everything is fine. Effy is safe and with Freddie. You're with me and that bastard psychiatrist is gone. We're fine okay," cook says giving me kisses over and over until I started to cheer up. "Look ill stay up until you fall sleep so you feel comfortable yeah?" Cook said bringing me closer. I nodded and allowed myself to drift off in his arms.