Timeless hope

Chapter 21/ july and luke

-July
Previously-
We went inside and up to my room. "What's wrong july?" "I need to talk to you" "about what" "I need you to know and I need you not to get mad" "july what is it" ....
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"I kissed Ashton" as I blurted out, "what" "the day you got mad he was over he came to me and kissed me its when you broke up with me." "Don't stress over it. We weren't dating" "your not mad" "why would I, I was a jerk and he was being nice" "yeah but" "yeah but nothing let it go. I came to hang out and have a good peaceful time with you alright." "Yeah." We sat on my bed putting on a movie. I was just thinking what is going through his head, I wanted to know.
I saw a tear slip from his eye, I knew I fucked up.
"Luke I swear I'm sorry but we weren't dating. And we were in the moment I'm sorry". I told him.

"I don't care I know he was trying to be there for you when I left you. I shouldn't be such a baby about it. It's my fault I left you".

"It doesn't seem like you don't care. I know you do so tell me what's bothering if it's not me and ashton."

"My parents, my parents is what's wrong july. I've been trying to keep it in but when you get kissed by someone else hurts and I fuckin can't do this."

"Luke don't say that your an amazing person you deserve the best. And I'll be here to help you through anything. I love you Luke."

"I know you do, that's why I'm letting you go. I'm sorry". He said in sobs

"Please don't do this" I started to tear up.

"I have to. Letting you go now will be easier, for me and you."

"No it won't why are you leaving me I want to help you get through whatever your going through and your pushing me away if like I'm the bad guy." I started to cry.

"I know your not the bad guy, I just need me and myself to think. And letting you go is the best choice for me right now july." He kissed my lips gently. And he pulled away.

"Don't do this please, my life it will be ruined don't leave me." I broke into tears as he left the room with nothing to say.
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I woke up. I headed to the restroom but someone rang the door bell. I jogged down stairs opening it.

"Hey Hazel how are you." I said

"Good I just wanted to see if you wanted to hang out get to know each other." She said nervously.

"Sure come one in, it's a little messy but my rooms cleaned" I said kinda self conscience.

"Haha it's okay my house is a mess bc we just moved in" she said laughing.

"Well here's my room haz"

"Wow this is amazing, omg you have a balcony, so do I". She said smiling

"Thanks my grams worked really hard on it she said it took her a good 3 to 5 days" I said proud of my grams.

"Cool , your so lucky I wish I had your life" she said all happy.

"Trust me you don't" I said sad.

"Why you date fucking Luke HEMMINGS for crying out loud who wouldn't want your life" she was all serious.

"Just trust me you don't" I said getting angry.

"Whatever I would love your life, so how are things with you and Luke". She asked

"He broke up with me" I said sternly
She broke the quite.

"So how's school" she asked

"I just started homeschool. My friend ashton is coming to help me today if you'd like to meet him stay or leave". I giggled.

"I'd love to stay if that's okay" she said

"Yeah, I need the company"

"Haha great, but seriously let's watch some Netflix please"

"Totally sure"

I ended our conversation by putting on zoey101. Pretty old show but I love it.

Ashton- sorry I can't make it family can't drive down there today.

Me- damn ashton. Want me to pick u up?

Ashton- no I'll come tomorrow.

Me- ugh whatever bye!

Ashton- don't get mad love you

Me- love you too loser bye!

Ashton- I'll take the car later tonight to see you alright babe

Me - okay silly.

I put my phone on the charger but then I got a text from Luke.

Luke- he I'm sorry about last night I was in a bad place and I wasn't in the mood

Me- it's totally fine

Luke- okay good bc I want you back

Me- you can't just say your done and then you want me back then say your done make up your mind boy

Luke- I'm trying, when you have family that's shit then you wanna leave JULY

Me- well fuck Luke idk what to tell you

Luke- fine

Me- you know what I guess we are done - for good

Luke- no please

Me- I begged you last night too and you didn't give one shit for me

Luke- I told you I wasn't in the mood.

Me- well guess what I'm not in the mood either

Luke- it's bc of Ashton, right you want Ashton!

Me- NO why are you being such an ass!

Luke- you know what I'm done

Me- talk to me when you get your shit together Luke bc I'm tried of playing your little back and forth games

He didn't respond back, him knowing that he needs to get his shit together is good bc i can't date him and then he get all in a bad mood and wanna brake up with me every other day it's so fucked up of him!

"Everything alright july" she asked concerned.

"Just stressed out about a lot of things" I said with a sigh.

"It's okay I am too my mom left us well me and my dad" she said.

"I'm sorry about that" I told her.

"What's wrong july" she asked

"Luke, Ashton and my moms dead and my dad wants to kill me and my life is all fucked up" i said frustrated.

"I'm sorry july" she said hugging me.

I decided to let haz stay the night bc I wasn't in the mood for being alone.
We laid down falling asleep.

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Okay guys sorry I haven't updated I'm only 1 day late which is totally fine I guess but it's already gonna be 3 months and if you know what that means then you might now what happens in the next 5 chapters so get ready for drama,mystery,sadness,thrill, and it's gonna be crazy I hope yall are gonna like it bc I work hard on these chapters :) and it's gonna get crazy and your never gonna believe what happens you have to read to find out :) good Luke I guess :/ lol