Timeless hope

Chapter 60

Chapter 60
"Not everyone is childish like you Luke, you need to chill sometimes ahaha your such a dork" she said harshly "just chill out for once" she said looking at me than looking away to see the t.v

"Okay whatever I have to go meet my friends to eat with them see you later" I said leaning in to kiss her cheek and I left.

I was mad she was so rude I don't know what I saw in her. I kept quiet the ride back to my house. Duh who am I supposed to talk to anyways. I got home walking to the front door that's when I saw...

I saw her. July. The last person I expected. She said that she never wanted to see me again but I saw her crying. I ran to her but she stopped me and pushed me and walked away. It was such a long time ago can't she let it go. It was a mistake. I didn't mean it. But at the time it was in the moment. I know messed up. It was a long time ago even she she showed me well it wasn't that long but I can't handle it.

"July" I said slowly and she turned around locking eyes with mine "talk to me" I said but she didn't even look at me "July look at me please don't shut me out you've done it long enough" I said she looked up into my eyes all I saw was pain "I'm done Luke I don't want to here what you have to say what has been done has been done I don't want to hear it" she said very painfully the words killed me inside she sounds so sad I really haven't heard her talk in forever.

"Please listen" I said trying to get to her "please" i said "why should I" she said almost in a whisper "I new to explain that day July your not giving me a chance I know you hate her as well ... You need to let me tell you" I tried telling her "no leave me alone I have to go I just came to visit me boys I haven't been in forever .. Just wanted to see how they were" she said "I didn't come to see you" the words came out slowly as she walked away getting into her car.

Here it goes again I'm letting her go I could think twice and try to make her listen or let her go and let more months pass. I let her go once again. I couldn't stop her when she wants to go. I know she doesn't want to hear what I have to say but I can't do anything about that. She drove away as I walked inside opening the door. I saw Calum in the kitchen Michael and Ashton in the living room. The same old house I've been in since idk but we've been here forever. I walked up stairs going into July's room were she once shared with "Hazel" I can't even say her name without thinking about how wrong I did July. I take I look around some clothes and books and papers and shoes were still here. She said she would come for them but never did. I know I wouldn't want to come back. I saw pictures of us on her wall and posters still there hanging on her wall. I just walked and looked. I went to the side of the bed and saw a notebook it looked kinda worn down. I picked it up.

"Luke" someone said as I dropped the book to the ground "what are you doing in here" I looked up it was Calum "oh just looking" I said trying to act like I didn't miss her "just cleaning up I guess was about to leave before you came in actually" as I walked to the door frame were he was "let's go" I said closing the door behind me dying to know what that notebook had inside.

I walked to my room opening the door. I jumped into my bed trying to get comfortable. Than-

*flash back*
I heard running my way. I saw July pop in and she jumped to the bed tackling me.

"What is it" I said

"Had a horrible dream that I died than -blah blah" she said as she hugged me again

*Flash back over*

I remembered I want to know more about that dream. Will I ever. Probably not. I hoped out of my bed. I looked outside the window but all I can see is my backyard. Kinda really dumb view. I see a ledge. I open my window. I climbed onto the roof trying to get my balance. I couldn't believe what I saw.