Timeless hope

Chapter 38/ done

I think about Hayes a lot and are future together. But I think about a lot of things and one of them is will me and Hayes loose this bound and I go back to Luke. I hope not.
I went down stairs seeing Hayes and a girl with very pretty blonde hair and green sparkly eyes. She was sitting next to him and she was laughing with him. I just sat next to Matthew and he put his arm around me and I just laid my head down. Hayes than saw us and got really mad and left the room. I told that girl to leave.

"Hey don't get mad he invited me over btw I'm cassidi" she said smiling

"Well I'm july the gf so you should leave before something else happens" I said angrily

"Whatever" she said

I walked into the kitchen were he was.

"Why are you getting mad you were all up on cass" I said

"I did it bc she's nice to me and stuff" he said

"You invited her to make me jealous, I'm upset. I thought what we have is something real and I don't want it to end so quickly. Can we just put this behind us" I said

"Yeah just give me a hug I've been super homesick and just wanna see my mom and dad and my little sister and just give me a hug" he said almost in tears

I hugged him and kissed his soft pink lips and hugged him again. Hayes and I went up stairs and laid by each other and he just played with my hair and we talked about how we need to get along better. We talk about some other random shit which I didn't really care about. I just wanted to be with him and that's it. He pulled me closer and we just cuddled.
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Calum texted and he wanted me to go to lunch with him. I decided to but I need to tell Hayes and if he doesn't approve I'll go to eat with him. I walk down stairs and I see Hayes with cassidi. I thought she had left when I asked her too. I'm not mad I shouldn't be. I walked down to the kitchen not even caring I grabbed a soda and headed back upstairs. I got ready so can meet Calum. I put on skinny jeans with a nirvana top and a light blue head band. I applied makeup and fixed my hair as I curled in Hayes walked in hugging me from behind.

"Hey beautiful" he said

"Sup" I was mad that cassidi was here still

"That's all I get babe" he said pouting

"Yep" I said as I continued doing my hair

He walked out laying on the bed as I finished up my last few curls and put hair spray so it can stay in well. I got a text from Calum and he said he'd be here soon.

"Hey Hayes I'm going out to eat with Calum ill be back in 2 hours" I said grabbing my bag

"Okay that's fine be back as soon as possible" he said hugging me

"I will Hayes" I said

"Well cassidi should be leaving soon" he said smiling

"Okay good" I said with a smile

"See you later baby girl" he said

I walked out going outside and seeing Calum barley arrive. I walked up to the car and I realized I left my purse in the house and told him to hold on. I ran upstairs to my room and saw Hayes and cassidi kissing. I grabbed my bag and I walked out tears pouring from my face already walked back to the car and I told Calum I'm not going with him he asked what was wrong but I walked away. I heard him get out of his car so I ran inside locking the door going back upstairs and into Kians room I slammed the door behind me and he was laying in bed with his shirt off. I slid down the door crying. Kian got up to see what was wrong.

"What happened july. Did Calum do anything" he said

"Calum would never hurt me. Are you crazy. And Hayes was kissing cassidi in my room! In my room" I said yelling

The door opened and Hayes stood in the door frame. I grabbed my bag and pushed him away. I ran down stairs into the kitchen grabbing Kians car keys than making my way to the garage and getting into the car I saw Hayes come In and I locked the doors i opened the garage door backing up and leaving. Tears and makeup fell down my face as I drove I cleaned myself up bc my tears last Time nearly got me killed. I drove to Luke's place it was about 20 minutes away. I made it and rang the doorbell. Calum answered the door bringing me into a hug he can tell when I'm still not over what happened.

"July you have to tell me what happened when you came to my car" he said very concerned to know

"Hayes." I said

"What did he do love" he said in a sweet time trying to comfort me in many ways possible. I wasn't fixable at the moment I wanted to drop dead

"He kissed another girl in my room. In my room" I yelled as tears rained down my face. I just wanted to go home and lay In my room but I honestly just wanna go home and see my grams I miss her so damn much.

"I'm sorry july. What he did to you wasn't right. He deserves another chance so give it to him. You know he's been the nicest boy yet so just talk to him. Or brake up with him. Whatever makes you feel better." He said rubbing my back and bringing me into another hug.

I went back home. I walked into the house it was 11:23 at night it was late and everyone was in the living room and when they saw me they all ran and gave me hugs and asked if I was okay or were I was. I told them I'm moving back home with my grams that I missed her and some other stuff. They all had sad looks and stares. I just walked up stairs grabbing my phone out of my bag and calling my grams.

"Hey grams how are you doing" I said in my sweet voice she remembers

"Good honey. I'm moving down to Pennsylvania" she said in her granny voice

"Really cause I'm planning on moving back with you. Is that okay" I said

"Yes honey but give me 1 or 3 weeks I need to get settled and get my room the guest room and your room back and than the kitchen and the bathroom. Well I paid someone to do all of it but it's gonna take awhile honey" she said

"Okay grams call me back as soon as possible when the house is packed and ready" I said

"Okay I gotta go honey" she said

I hung up laying on my bed. I saw that Matthew you came in. My I had my grams on speaker and I guess he heard that I was actually moving.

"So your actually moving. But I live in Pennsylvania so I think would work out good if you move to the same side as me." He said happy

"Oh it would be cool" I said

He walked out saying bye and I just laid down and covered myself up. I was so depressed and upset with myself and Hayes.
I wanted to end my life.

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Hey I'm gonna add Hazel back in and add a new character and sorry the ending is kinda depressing. I lost one of my closest friend yet idk if I should give up or just keep going on in life I feel so lost and depressed I actually feel like I wanna end things. I'm sorry but update early😔