Timeless hope

Chapter 47

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Hazel
I wake up screaming. There's something watching me I thought. I looked around the room freaked out. I saw a shadow in the doorway. I got up and saw Calum walking to the restroom. I just went downstairs to relax it was 7:00 am it was early. I was looking for Luke but I remember he was gone. Idk what made me look for him. Well I'm always used to seeing him. I came back upstairs walking towards Luke's room but something stopped me. I wait a second and keep walking. I enter his room and all memories spilled inside me. I walk around the room looking at pictures of me and him and him and july and how happy he looked, that's when I saw his phone under his bed. I grabbed it turning it on. The screen saver was a picture of him and july. There was a passcode. I couldn't think of what it might be so I put it back under the bed and scan the room some more and that I saw Luke with Calum,Michael and Ashton they all looked so happy. Now there nothing. I try to figure out why did he kill himself he was getting better. I'm just wondering how you just leave some much behind without nothing. I keep looking for clues in his room I check his drawers for something, anything. There was nothing to be found. I open a door leading me into the restroom and there was paper everywhere. I was confused. Terrified. I gathered them all up and brought them to his bed. I closed the door. I look at them. There letters to july more like I'm gonna kill myself letters. The dates that are on them are before she died. It says that he wanted to kill himself because life wasn't going easy for him so he wanted to let go. It brings up that don't worry you'll be fine I won't be in your way no more. And a lot of the letter is ripped I can barely read it. I try to focus on the words but all I see is letters everywhere. I think about the days before she died. But it's just all a blur. When I realize he was gonna kill himself before july actually died he held on a lot longer than he thought he could but he did and I guess he couldn't do it no more so he ripped up all these papers and threw them and killed himself. I try to remember the night he texted me. I still have the texts I thought. I ran to my room coming back and closing the door. I went to my texts and I had a lot I just been too depressed to respond to any. I see Luke's name and the messages. I burst into tears. I could of saved him. It's my fault he's gone. During all of this july was out doing her own thing. I can't remember our last memory together. Everything Is such a blur from the day Luke and July died. -- WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP...

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Okay wtf and Aww such a sad chapter and so sorry it's short I'm already working on the others and again I had gotten my phone taken away like an idiot oh and please enjoy BC it is ending soon bc none of YALL have commented and said keep going or your book is good so😪 it's gonna end