Timeless hope

Chapter 51

Chapter 51
July
I'm literally freakin done I can't believe both of them were arguing with me. I like Matthew so much but I need to end it. With me staying at Luke's house and not having my privacy with Matt sucks. I want to stay with him but having a boyfriend is a lot of stress I need more time to think about it. I need to think about the fact who am I really giving up on. I think it's more confusing. I just wish my life would fall into place and that I'd just stop being so much. Too much of stress and frustration makes a person crazy and depressed. I just wish it would all just stop. Well for starters the boys had canceled there 4 or 3 day show when my friends showed up. There having it this weekend and I think it's a small tour and that its gonna get bigger soon that they wouldn't be around to much and they asked if I want to go on the road with them I said I'd think about it. But I'm happy for them there doing there own thing. There getting older so fast. I remember when they weren't so punk rock especially Michael's crazy ass. But anyways I'm a happy for my idiots. Matthew is a really big deal in my life. But a big party of me wants to end it and another just wants it to fall in place and work out. I lay down in my bed in frustration, thinking about everything all in one kills me inside.
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I get out of bed heading downstairs. I saw Hazel chillin on the couch and the boys in the kitchen. I saw that they were whispering. I was kinda confused why. I wonder if there hiding something. I walk Into the kitchen. They stopped talking and all said hi to me and they all scattered. Calum and Michael went to the living room with Hazzz and luke and Ashton went to the kitchen table. I decided to go sit with luke and Ashton.

"Hey losers" I said

"Sup" ashton said

"Hey" Luke said

"So what were yall talking about?" I said

"Oh nothing" they both said all suspiciously

"Oh well okay than I'll go ask CALUM and Michael" I said

"Okay okay fine" they both said

"We were planning on taking your best friends from O2L and Magcon to our small tour and our exclusive tour which is a bit longer and we were planning on them to be on stage" they said

"Oh god really" I said with excitement

"Yeah we already called them and they said they loved to come" ashton said

"Great so should I back 2 bags" I said

"Yeah we're leaving first thing tomorrow morning" they said

"Okay cool"

I ran up stairs to pack all the stuff I'll need and we're gonna have a meet and greet there so I'm super excited. I can't wait to be with all the boys I love.