Timeless hope

Chapter 25/lost

Luke-
I lost it. I might of lost her. When I found out she was in a car accident my heart stopped for a second and I was so scared. Michael is speeding to the hospital which is 40 minutes away from where we were from. I told him to slow down but he went faster trying to get there to make sure she's okay. There's nothing we can do at this point all we can do is hope she's okay. I was so worried and all of this is my fault. If I didn't brake her heart she'd be in my arms and we would be kissing and just together. But she's in a hospital bed injured. Maybe running away from us bc we found her but idk for sure. I just sit and think and worry.

We make it to the hospital, running inside to see which room she was in. She is on floor 2 room 206 we walk in and check in upstairs and her grams lets us in. The boys tell me to go in that they'd wait. I walk in very nervous. I see her the corner of my eye and a tear slips down and she looks so bad. I walk towards her bed kneeing to her side. I whispered in her ear. I love you, I said with tears coming down my face. I tell her it's all my fault she's in her. But I know she can't hear me bc she's asleep . I hope she's asleep. I walk out the room letting the boys go in to look at her Calum came out first crying. I grabbed him and hugged him tight. I felt his pain. Ashton came out with no tears but his eyes were puffy red. And Michael came out 20 minutes later crying super loud I took him to the restroom.

"She looks so bad" Michael said

"She was hurt Mikey. And it's all my fault she's in here. I should be in that hospital bed hurt. Not her. I feel so bad I wanna leave and never come back. But Mikey I love her. Idk why I let her go." I said trying not to cry.

"Luke it's not your fault. I know she was upset with you. But she made a choice to runaway from us well you." He said

"Yeah I guess your right. But I need her mike. I want her. Without her I'm I'm ... I'm lost and it feels like I won't ever be found." I said

We walked out with tears streaming down our face.

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We were there waiting for her to wake up. The doctor comes out and said she is hurt pretty bad she'll be in the hospital for 3 more days or longer bc her accident was serious. He said she forgot half her memory which is she forgot the last few days and doesn't remember anything he said she remembers everything but what happened the past few days. And I didn't understand. He also said she is supposed to remember her accident and the whole day but he said if she doesn't then it's bc of the medicine. We walk in and see her. She calls me over and kisses me on the cheek. I felt bad bc she doesn't know that we broke up. I mean she shouldn't remember anything it doesn't make since that she can remember today but not 2 days before. I lay next to her holding her hang and telling she's going to be okay. I really want to tell her but how. She doesn't remember running away or who called her or were she was its all a blur and it sucks. She grips my hand when the doctor walks in and said there should only be 2 people in here not 5. Her grams said that she'll leave to let us talk as the boys leave as well. She asks me to sit on the bed next to her so I do. I get up and sit next to her. She holds my hand and said she can't remember anything and that the last thing she remembers that it all went black.

"July , you got in a car accident. And you were hurt pretty bad as you can tell." I told her

"I know that but I missed you the last time we talked was with Louis. I miss your kisses and your hugs." She said

"July about that... We need to talk."
I said

"What is it Luke?" She said with fear in her eyes.

"We broke up bc you kissed ashton. Well ashton kissed you and I was so mad I broke up with you. So you ran away bc you were so upset and when we found you. You ran and drove off getting into a car accident." I said crying.

"Oh Luke. I broke your heart. I swear I would never kiss Ashton yeah we're friends but." She started to cry.

I hugged her so tight and I didn't want to let her go. She was my everything right now all I need is her. She cried and cried and begged for another chance. I just don't know yet. I know she was heart broken but they kissed and I was so pissed and. I don't want to give her another chance I know I sound like a jerk but I'm not I just don't want a relationship right now. I'm to stressed out.
She stops crying and let's go of me and tells me to get out. That she needs time to think and process everything. I walked out without hesitation. I run to the restroom and clean my face. Calum comes in and hugs me and tells me everything is gonna be okay. But I'm afraid she's gonna fall for him and I'm gonna be the jerk who broke Julys heart. I hug him back and tell him thanks and we walk out and sit in the waiting for. Waiting for nothing.

July-
I can hardly remember what has happen these past few days. And it's getting to me. I want to be with someone special like Luke. But I don't think he wants me. I can't blame him. I'm a fuck up and I hate it. My grams walks in putting my phone next to me. I'm guessing it didn't brake in the accident. Thank god and I thanked my grams and she said she was going home to get some rest and I should to. Mikey walks in telling me there gonna leave but Calum wants to stay. I said okay and he walked out as Mikey left. I was really happy to see Calum. It felt like it's been forever and we can hang out till he wants to leave. Thank god for Calum hood.

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That's how I'm ending this chapter and Calum will be having his own part so will the other boys which is gonna be interesting so get ready and I'm sorry I haven't been on I've been crying this past week bc my friend died and I miss her like crazy so I'm sorry😞😭❤️ I'm trying here💛😞// I'll be posting later today or night ☝️