Timeless hope

chapter 64 .

chapter 64
He hung up on me. I didn't even know better. I'm wishing I never said anything to him at all or answered his dumb ass call. I feel like such a bitch but I shouldn't feel like this. so freaking mad.
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"babe what's wrong with you, you've been acting completely different these past couple of days" Austin looked at me as I made my way to him sitting down text to him

"it's nothing" I said trying to avoid his questions

"doesn't seem like just nothing .." there was a pause "is it Luke" he asked looking up "is it" he asked and waited for my response

"no stop asking I'm fine" I said walking out the getting mad with his questions
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I walked out the house to Alex's because he lived down the street. I knocked and he came to the door and offered me in.

"what's up" he said looking at me

"nothing much me and Austin kinda were talking and asked about Luke and I got so pissed" I said looking at Alex for a response .

"he just wants to know, he thinks you still have feelings for Luke" Alex said patting my back

"I don't, I do but it's complicated" I said looking up at Alex

"talk to the boy July, don't leave him out" Alex told me giving me a hug, he looked up at me that's when his lips connected with mine. I backed away fast and I was in shock.

"what's wrong with you Alex" I half screamed getting up "what are you thinking this is insane Austin is you're best friend" I said getting angry and now I have to deal with the fact Austin is going to have to know.

"nothing , I wasn't thinking , I always had a crush on you" he said looking down regretting what he did "I'm so sorry, it's just I like you and i didn't know how to tell you" he said.

"should've told me Alex , now Austin is going to be very angry" I said thinking about how his reaction is going to be "God damnit , I have to leave , you fucked this up" I said really mad.

"it's not my fault , it's a kiss why are you making it a bigger deal" he questioned seeming like it wasn't a big deal at all "I'm sorry"

"it is a big deal you dumb ass" I said walking out of his room.

"wait up July , I didn't mean to" Alex screamed behind me as I walked out the front door down the street back to Austin's.

I walked in his house running to his moms room, she was sitting watching t.v and she looks at me with concern in her face. she gets up and comes over to me.

"sweet heart what's wrong" she asked me but I couldn't fine the words "what happened you can tell me" as she took me to the bed to sit down.

"it's Alex , and it's Austin" I said slowly

"what happened baby , did they hurt you" she questioned me

"no , Alex - he " I said stuttering try to get the words out

"what is it , what did he do" she asked once again.

"Alex kissed me" I blurted out really loud , louder than I expected.

"he what now" her face grew with anger

"I'm braking up with Austin , I'm going back to L.A I know he's going to hate me for this" I said quietly

"no , please don't do this to Austin he really likes you , he's never really been like this for a girl since 5th grade" she said as her eyes filled with tears

"I have to, I left a boy with no answer back home and he is waiting for me" I said

"you were cheating on Austin the whole damn time huh" she said getting a bit mad "I'm sorry , I know you're not god I sound like such a bitch" she said