𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙮

𝘓𝘰𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘻𝘰 𝘊𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘭𝘦𝘴 𝘉𝘦𝘳𝘬𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘳𝘦

It had been a week of fun, headaches, and sleeping all together in the living room. Spring break was amazing! And now I was back at Hogwarts. Fred and George were gone again but this time I felt okay. They were in Sweden. 

I was done with school for today and was now, sitting on my bed reading. My hair was in a bun and was wearing one of Enzo's shirts and my sweatpants. 

Enzo. The first boy I ever loved. He was kind, considerate, and moreover, he was always there for me. My love for him is still here just buried somewhere in my heart because of my love for Fred. 

~ ~ ~ ~ 

It had been 3 weeks since Spring break and I missed it so much. Walking through the halls, sometimes alone was exhausting. When I looked at Enzo and how miserable he looked with his new girlfriend, Hannah Abbot, a Hufflepuff.  It wasn't like I was against them dating it was just that sometimes when I look at him I kinda miss him. But that didn't matter, I was with Fred. 

But maybe he was happy. Maybe I was making it seem like he was miserable. Maybe I did miss him a little. Was it wrong to miss him? 

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

I sat down in the great hall for dinner. I was so hungry! I hadn't eaten lunch because I napped through it. I've been pretty tired these past few days. Liv had started the early morning running again that's why. 

"I'm literally starving," I said as I sat down. 

"You look so pale," Ginny said. 

"Why is everyone telling me that" I complained. 

"Ok just eat," Liv said. "Maybe you'll look un-pale" 

"Ok I'll eat, that was my plan" I giggled. As I ate my 4th sausage, someone tapped my shoulder. I turned around, holding my sausage, It was Hannah Abbot. 

"Um hi?" I said. 

"Hi, can I um talk to you?" Hannah asked. 

"Yeah, here or where?" I asked. 

"Here follow me," She said. I followed her out of the great hall and towards the right. Enzo and I's main go-to spot to talk. 

"So um I know you and Enzo have a past together" Hannah begun. "And I just hope there's no weirdness between us"

"Yeah of course not," I said awkwardly. 

"Yeah I know but these past few weeks you just um have been giving me weird looks" Hannah added. 

"Oh, it's not what it looks like I'm just trying to move on" I replied. "From a lot of things"

"I hope you do," Hannah said reassuringly. "I just wanted to clear that out" 

"Yeah okay," I replied awkwardly. 

"Hannah let's go," Enzo said as he walked up to us. He didn't notice me. 

"Yeah I should go," I said. Enzo's eyes widened as we locked eyes. I looked away quickly. 

"I'll be back in a minute I forgot my book," Hannah said as she ran back into the great hall, leaving Enzo and me alone. 

"How are you?" I asked. 

"You've literally never asked how I am before" Enzo replied. 

"I'm just making small talk" I giggled. 

"I'm good, how are you?" He asked. 

"Okay, Hannah's a nice girl" I responded. 

"Yeah but I'm gonna drop the bomb on her tonight," Enzo said as he played with his hair. 

"Oh," I said. Somehow that made me feel a little happy. 

"Can we talk later tonight?" He asked. "At my dorm"

"um yeah ok," I said. "I'm going to go eat so see you later around 11?"

"Yeah great," he said. Why would he want to meet me? One thing I've learned, Don't have hope. It'll get you nowhere. 

I finished eating and now, Shower! My favorite part o the day. After, I put on a white tank top and sweatpants. I went back to my dorm and put on a hoodie. I grabbed my hair tye and put it around my wrist then walked out. It was 10:50. I walked fast to get to the Slytherin common room. 

I knocked on his door and he opened it. He was wearing his favorite white shirt and his blue flannel pajamas. 

"Hey," I said. I walked into his dorm and saw Draco and Blaise sitting there. I sat beside Blaise and hugged him. 

"Long time" I whispered. He nodded his head and turned towards Draco and Enzo sitting opposite of us. 

"We'll leave you two to it," Draco stated as he and Blaise walked out of the dorm. 

"so what did you want to talk to me about," I asked. 

"I just wanted to hang out you know" Enzo acknowledged. 

"Okay," I added. "What'd you wanna do?"

"Drink," He asked. 

"Yes please," I said dramatically. 

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ 

After a couple hundred drinks, Enzo and I were drunk. 

"When I die, I'll be dead," I said as I swayed along the dorm trying not to fall. 

"I'm so in love with you" Enzo screamed. 

"I'm in love with two people," I said as I raised my beer bottle. Enzo turned on the radio, right to a slow song, and we began slow dancing. 

"Why do you have to be so pretty" Enzo whispered as we continued to dance. 

"I'm so confused in life" I whispered back. I placed my head on his shoulder and continued dancing. 

"I never stopped loving you" I whispered. 

"I know that. I know you didn't. Even though I did everything possible to push you away. It's my fault. It's all my fault" Enzo answered. 

"No Jade, Both of us had our mistakes," He said as he wiped my tears. "Don't ever think like that" 

"Enzo, A wise man since told me, Both of us had our mistakes," I said. "Don't ever think like that" 

"I'm a wise man" He giggled. 

"You are," I said as we continued to dance. "Can we be friends?" 

"Yeah" He responded. "But before we become friends," He dove in and kissed me. "There," I smirked and laid down on his bed. 

"I feel kinda guilty," I said. 

"Why?" Enzo asked. 

"I'm dating Fred, I'm in love with you and him, and I kissed you behind his back" I blurted out. 

"Ok wow," He responded. "Talk about guilt" 

"You don't always have to be sarcastic," I said. 

"It's like you're me and I'm you," Enzo said. I giggled. 

"I'm sleepy" I added. I laid my head on his chest and fell asleep. It's been a while now since I've been with him like this.