𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙮

𝘎𝘶𝘪𝘭𝘵

My eyes opened as my head filled up with details from last night. Here, let my list down some major events from last night. I kissed Enzo, Told him I loved him and slept in his bed with him. Just great. 

"Morning" Enzo said as he fiddled with my hair. 

"Morning" I replied as I rested my head on Enzo's chest again.  I felt extremely guilty. 

We laid there silently for a while. 

"I should get going," I said as I stood up. "I feel dizzy"

"Oh, do you want some water?" Enzo asked. He got up snd walked towards his dresser where he picked up a bottle of water. He handed it to me and I took a sip. 

"Tomorrow's Liv's birthday," I said as I drank water. "We're having a party if you want to come" 

"Thanks for the invite, I'll be there" Enzo responded. I giggled. 

"I've been thinking and I feel like we should just um," I said as I tried to figure out the words. 

"I know what you're trying to say" Enzo replied. 

"I just feel guilty," I said. "I mean my boyfriend isn't here and I just kissed my ex"

"I think you should go," Enzo said. I nodded my head and left. For once, I felt right about doing something. 

I walked into the common room and then into the dorm. I saw 2 redheads standing there. I ran towards Fred. I hugged him and then kissed him. Suddenly, the memories came flooding back again. 

"Where were you?" Liv asked. 

"I was with Luna" I replied. "Family bonding" 

"I'm going to go shower," I said as I picked up my clothes and ran out of the room. After taking my clothes off, I turned on the shower. As the water hit my body, I began to cry. Tears ran down my eyes. 

I just wanted to cry, let it out. 

"Jade where were you?" A familiar voice asked from the other side of the shower curtain.

"Ginny?" I asked. 

"Yeah, it's me" She replied. "Where were you last night?"

"I was with Enzo," I said as I cried. "I did some stupid things"

"Did you shag him?" She asked. 

"NO! I just kissed him" I said. "I kissed and me being the stupid person I am, I told him I loved him and Fred" 

"I love him and Fred" I screamed, "I Love two people"

"Oh," Another voice spoke. I put on my robe and opened the shower curtain. Beside Ginny was Fred. The guilt on my face arose. 

"sorry. I messed up" I said. "Again and I know I've messed up this relationship. So just like that, we're done, right?"

"You heartless bitch" Ginny said. 

"Thank you" I screamed. "I am a heartless bitch yes"

"Bye Jade," Fred said as he walked away with tears in his eyes. Ginny also walked out. I quickly changed and went to the dorm. When I walked in, everyone looked at me with hatred. Even Liv. 

Liv and Ginny were packing up all their clothes and they left. Fred followed them out. George stayed. 

"I messed up I know okay," I said as I cried. "I am a heartless bitch, Ginny was right"

"Ginny said that?" Fred spat. "But you didn't mess up. It's not your fault"

"Really George? Then whose fault is it huh?" I screamed teary-eyed. 

"No one's" George responded. "But I'm sorry family first" He added as he left. 

Family first? Is that supposed to be a joke? My mom is dead, I haven't talked to my 'dad' in 4 months, I haven't seen Luna in 4 months, and the rest of my family doesn't know or care about me. 

I've lost everyone in my life because of my stupidity. Nobody cares about me anymore. I've ruined my life.