The Same Guy￨Lu Xia

二七：Why Can't You See?!

We both departed from the group after we got checked in. Lu Xia usually goes off alone and he allows me to come with so I join him.

I was leaning my head against his shoulder as he sips his soda and he shared his soda too which is surpassing since last time I gulped it down.

" So, are you okay with your break up if you don't mind me asking." He brought up. Out of the blue too.

" Nah, I don't mind. I felt confused about my feelings. About liking him and someone else I have in mind. I still like that person, but I have a. friend who likes him too so...it's harder than you think." I vented as I just realized I basically told him without telling him! Holy crap!

Wait, why did I just vent it out with out hesitating? I mean, I fell like I can tell him anything and he'll always understand and not pity me.

" Well, I hope you get the guy and I hope he makes you happier than Qiao Ze..." Lu Xia responded as I could feel a bit of harshness in his tone of voice.

Did I say something to piss him off?

" Did I say something wrong?" I asked him unsure about his feelings right now.

"...I'm fine. I',m just thinking about the upcoming match. I know I have to play the guy in the green and yellow tracksuit next match." He elaborated as I nodded.

" Oh okay, I though you were pissed off that I just annoyed you with my problems." I said with a bit of relief...actually a lot.

Lu Xia's POV:

So she likes another guy? Seriously?! I though I had my window of opprountiy WIDE OPEN! Now anther guy is gonna swoop in and take her away from me!? Seriously!

Why can't I just be a man and tell her my feelings. I don't know what's topping me!

Is it the feeling of rejection?

Loss of friendship?

Awkwardness?

I DON'T KNOW! That's what is frustrating me.

UGH! I wish love isn't this complicated!

When Zhou Jia asked me if I was alright. I lied to her sayin gI was just tense about the upcoming match with e stranger guy that threaten us.

Half was that and the other half was thinking about Zhou Jia 25/8.

Can't she see that I'm being more affectionate and touchy in this " friendship"?

I'm hugging her more, I kissed her forehead when she was dating, I held her waist. What else can make her see that I CLEARLY have feelings for her. Am I not clear enough?

Is she clueless?

I don't know!

We both sat in comfortable silence as I could feel her get a bit tired as I had her rest on my lap. She got comfortable and mumbled a 'thanks' before drifting off to sleep. I smiled and I didn't care who was watching.

She feels nice, I looked down at her stunning features on her face as he pale skin goes perfectly with her hair color and her light freckles across her nose the spread out to her blushed cheeks. He plump lips were so tempting as I unconsciously liked my lips.

I really want to do it...I can't take advantage of her like that in the open. I would be dishonorable. She would hate me. Every time she would hear my name she would think of a perv.

I can't do this. I have t own it until she's convoys and that I know her feelings.

For now, I gave he a forehead kiss like I did before as I swept a piece of hair that blew in her face from the soft breeze on this hot day.