"I-i'm fine!" He spoke a bit taken back that she easily was able to regain herself normally after that, just barely seeming fazed. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to almost fall on you, that really wasn't my intention." He had sighed a bit nervously with a quiet chuckle thinking his tears had blurred his vision that much to the point he didn't realize he was gonna fall on her. He was sure the coast had been clear but... Guess sight wasn't necessarily his strong suit either.
'surprising.'
"No no it's okay! I went to catch you..." She spoke with a weak smile, "Are you alright? Do you need to talk or something?" She asked him now frowning slightly as she had asked this question. Of course she was being casual about it, what else was there to do? Aggressively yell at the sensitive boy? Overwhelm him with a more powerful reaction? She knew better than to overwhelm him even more than he currently had been.Guilt had still set it's way within his stomach despite her nice attempt with him. This was absolutely not how things were supposed to go, now this poor girl felt the need to ask him how he was feeling... It was a suicide attempt, she clearly knew that.
'I should've double checked.'
"Ah-no no! I'm really okay it's just how... My body works. My power only really activates when met with fear so... What's more terrifying than hopping off a building?" He questioned just trying to seem convincing but, he was sounding more nervous than anything. Maybe he could run it off as if it was something not depressing. Maybe he could turn this whole thing around and maybe avoid the situation all together of having to talk about his genuine intentions.
"what's your quirk? If it's fear based." She asked not believing him in the slightest with how nervous he sounded. Which she was right to take in his signs as lying instead of still being shaken up about the experience. She was very observant when it came to things like that.
"Oh uhm its.. trauma. I thought I may have made you throw up because you felt my stomach drop as I did." He scratched the back of his neck not exactly able to look at her as he lied through his teeth. He just wanted to run away and escape but he just couldn't be rude. He could've made her witness his body splattered in blood, or possibly could've ended up harming her with his fall. If he ran away now, he would always have to deal with that panic of possibly seeing her again.
"That's a lie. Me throwing up is when I over do my quirk." She stated with crossed arms. She didn't even leave room to accept his bluff and that just made Midoriya's stomach turn more in his growing guilt. "Oh really?... What exactly is your quirk then? I know it's gravity based but you seem to be able to levitate more through touch?" He spoke in hopes of getting her to explain so he could possibly just escape the moment. Usually that's how he would stop conflicts in the past so... Maybe it could work here.
"Yeah it's gravity based, when I touch things, they float. This isn't about me though. Why'd you fall?"
'Please just spare me.'
He pursed his lips for a moment before sighing quietly, he didn't have a lie ready in his head but even if he did it wouldn't work, She was smart. "I... I just chose to fall. Atleast if I did it this way I wouldn't be wasting anything necessary." He sighed quietly looking more down at his feet ashamed as he messed with his hands. "Sure it would be a mess for someone to clean up but.. I just thought that maybe if they heard about what I did to myself they'd finally learn something." He admitted just getting quieter in explanation.
"What do you mean? Who lead you to do this?" She questioned just being more concerned for the boy in front of her. "Myself. It was my fault I did what I did." He sighed not wanting to blame anyone else for what action he decided to take, even if it was encouragement from one specific person in particular. "I just... I didn't want to continue living if I didnt have any worth to offer."
"you seem like you have a lot to offer. You shouldn't kill yourself, y-ou probably have a home to go to and a bright future! Especially if your going to this school!"
"People here aren't necessarily nice to me. 'Quirkless people only exist for people to save' Kacchan made it clear to me today that maybe if I wanted a quirk I should just pray for the next life that I'm lucky enough." He let that spill having began to tear up slightly again but he was recoiling over his own feel of emotions just shaking his head. "Sorry I should probably go." He shook his head but already turning around he was just met with a whole splat of cake on his head..
She was wondering where that went..
"it doesn't matter if you're quirkless." She stated with a huff. "Quirkless people do so much for hero's, they're not useless, if anything there highly needed. There are support hero's, quirkless people can do mundane thing's without a side effect, and quirkless people have the biggest hearts! Besides having a quirk isn't all that great. Me for a example I threw up after saving you and I can't even hold things without my pinky up. You're worth so much don't throw yourself away because someone, or you told yourself that your not worth anything. You have so much you can do you just have to do it!"she spoke grabbing his wrist carefully as the cake splattered on him frosting splattering on her face
This encouragement just seemed late and bittersweet but... He still thought it was nice to hear despite the cake just now staining his defeated face. Why could no one have told him this growing up? He probably would've believed it had he gotten encouragement as he grew but now this advice just almost seemed far-fetched to him. "Thank you, I really appreciate this but.." he sighed just having actually cupped her cheek to take away the frosting, seeming rather bold but really he was more caught in his feelings to be currently embarrassed. "I just don't see how I can do any of that."
Her face burned at the very forward touch leaving her cheeks to be red. Lightly moving his hands from her face to hold his within hers. "Well... there's plenty you could do, you just have to try... You could always apply to U.A. for the support hero course or, you could just take it a step at a time. Figure out a good way to do things for yourself." She spoke before sighing apologetically "Sorry about the cake..."
"It's fine, I'll buy you a new one since I kinda owe it to you. Where'd you get,,, well this?" He asked just trying to pull it out and off of his head but he just started to look like a badly done brunette himself as he did. She though, had shook her head at the mention. "Really it's okay just don't commit again."she stated going to just help with this whole cake mess of hair he now had. Though Midoriya was persistent.
"No, it's okay I need to pay you back for saving me." He shook his head. "I might as well give you something of thanks... Especially since I kinda made you toss your lunch so please, just let me do this."
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Gravity Shift
FanficWhat if Deku didn't get one for all in the beginning? What if after all might told him he couldn't be a hero, he actually decided to try and commit suicide that day? How would the story be altered and how would it effect the plot as a whole? I would...