Dumbass dairy of a fuck up

Hia

So anyone who know so me like irl and talks about what I say I'm here in a bad way can go fuck themselves honestly. Those who think I'm an attention seeking bitch who faked everything that's wrong them can go to hell
I'm going though hell right now, I hate it so fucking much when people touch me, if you gonna touch me it better be a hug, b anything other than that I'll fucking sink my nails into your skin or hurt you in any way possible and of you go off and have a little bitch about me from you touching me go suck a dick because I've made it clear enough I don't want to be touched.

On another note
I'm not faking shit, I've recently had a voice come into my head and constantly tell me everyone is lying that everyone is out to get me, that no one will ever love me because I'm to fat and everyone just says I should put weight on because they enjoy me being gross and unlovable. And a thing to my ex yeah if you ever read this your a cunt and your the one that doesn't know "true pain" you will never know what it's like to be alone and have no one oh and your little bmth quote, if you were so scared to get close you'd be a Virgin whore and thanks for leading me on because I was fucking in love with you, now thanks to you I can't feel love and I can't even get horny, thanks to you I'm dead so fuck you hopefully one day you'll have your head out of your asshole

My mother you need to fuck off and stay out of my life, you blamed me for everything, you abused me and my dad, I fucking hate you so much. I never want to see you again and if I hear from you in 10 years time it will be to soon.
Your a fucking stupid bitch you alway play to victim your almost 50 grow the fuck up LEIGT
I'm 14 and I already know how to tell when I'm the blame and guess what almost 100% I blame myself for what happens
So talk to someone who cares about you because I've lost all respect for you
Cunt

My so called friends
I get that I'm friends with you but damn this is high school don't be a little bitch if I'm invited to a party you've all gone off and made new friends so shut the fuck up about me being a bitch for having other friends I can't please everyone I can't always be there
This is my damn life don't be a fucking bitch because I chose to do something without you be glad I have other freeing when all I want to do is die

This is shit I hate everything my life is going to shit so guess what I care only about my weight and how I look I don't give a fuck about anything but this I've got nothing left for me here I just want to die otherwise just FUCKONG let me go and die ok no need to botch about me consider me dead because soon I will be