Dumbass dairy of a fuck up

Over

I talked to him for the last time
It's almost been a month since the whole brake up and I feel like a better person
I feel so much better about my body even put a bit of weight on so now I can't get my finger tips under my ribs
But this chat it didn't take very long but I felt scared when it started but ended up feeling great when it ended, he's a dick anyway like I mean he already has a girlfriend and claims to be happy but I know it won't last, he will fuck up and he will make her leave he's always done it
But I'm done with him, there are guys here that like me so I'm set..some are pretty cute
but I guess it who I'm happy with, looks aren't everything but I'm going to be the best girlfriend I can in my next relationship
Hopefully I can get my first kiss soon! I think I've been flirting enough for it .
I'm with my step mum today but I've gotta do so work and then I'll wrote If anything happens.
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Nothing ended up happing it was really just a boring day, I haven't really got any feelings towards me ex anymore, he's out of my life he's got a girlfriend but honestly he's fucked up every other relationship and some girls just aren't as strong as me and I don't think this new girl can take him at his worst, god I wanna remind him that he would threaten to kill himself he put me under heaps of stress he even faked self harm yet he still try's to act like the victim but he's no victim. He's the wrong doer and it's pretty sad that he can't see and doesn't even say sorry like dude no respect much lol. Anyway he's a dick and I accept that. OMFG he tried to make it sound like I still wanted him like dude no your gross like you'd just start jerking off in front of me and that's just no, I just wanted to have a clean convo then boom your naked and I'm acting like I can't see what's going on lol he's so gross I don't even want him back anymore I don't love him or like him!
Being with him taught me something tho, I don't need to be perfect I don't need to look perfect for someone else I'm me and if you don't love what I am then you shouldn't make me change
I'm happy now he's gone and I've been smiling all day so I honestly think I'm over him he's a dick I know that but he can't help to be wrong so that's gonna keep him down but not my problem I tried to help but he doesn't ow how to listen

I've got people here liking me anyway and I like some too!