I haven't updated this book because my life just took over the past few months...I lost interest in everything...my boyfriend dumped me, yea we talk and he wants to go as "friend with benefits" and it's like...i want to tell him that makes me feel used and pretty much like a slut...he knows I still love him and he knows I want to be with him but he won't even try to make it up to my dad...I asked him if he wanted to see me next year and he won't even FUCKIN answer...I'm so done...I have a date even tho I promised that I wouldn't act on it in deal that he wouldn't act on his because he "still loves me" ...he was my reason for life..so what the fuck am I meant to do find a new one? I tried already I tried to find a new reason but there's nothing, no I don't want to stay because of my friends no I don't want to stay because if family I honestly want to be gone and I will be
I've lost hope in life and recovery so I give up I honestly don't give a fuck anymore...,
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I'm trying so fucking hard not to cry right now I just feel like a worthless cunt...fuck life fuck it all I don't care anymore
Nothing will stop that date coming NOTHING
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He hates me...he hates me...there's something wrong with me I need to die I'm not worth life...stupid need to die die die die...please just let me die...
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I'm not talking to him for a week, I'm so fucking sick of his changing feelings with me...he wants me one min then doesn't the next..hopefully he will sort himself out and pick, it's so. Hard I miss him so much god
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Dumbass dairy of a fuck up
Non-FictionEverything I put in this book is what is happening inside my head. Sometimes I can't control what happens this is my life through my eyes How I get threw high school How I get threw life
