Dumbass dairy of a fuck up

Brakes are not fun

So..I got into a fight with the boyfriend last night...over having a crush...and I went to bed thinking he wouldn't care about it in the morning...we he cared...I even tried not to talk to him about it...but he brought it up right away...we were fighting all morning he pretty much dumped me at one point then say he would stay...I went to see my schools counsellor, she asked if I wanted to call the cops and get them to check on him, he was threatening to kill himself so I told him that I would call the cops and right after that he said "don't make my life anymore stressful then it all ready is, go away I'm not going to kill myself I just want you gone"...we kept fighting till the point where I got sent home because I was in no state to go to anymore classes...he tried to talk to me and I asked him "do you want to make up or brake up" he said make up and his sorry? "Sorry I was a cunt to you" wow...not only was he a cunt..he was a bitch...he over reacted and was treating me very unfair...now we are on a two week brake...my birthday is in 10 days...he's not going to be there and I'm going to be upset...you know what the saddest thing about this is? ....

I still love him...

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I have a crush on a guy...he lives an hour away from me and is so sweet and compliments me he does all that sweet stuff and we joke around sometimes we say we are future fuck buddy's and laugh about it...I'm meeting up with him tomorrow maybe..I'm a bit scared..I hope it all goes well..this guy wants my first kiss...and I kinda want his...my boyfriend didn't say anything about hook ups...